/soy/ - Soyjaks

4 months ago i spent 28 days in rehab and it was the first and only time i’ve fully lived as a woman… i was blacked out when i was admitted and apparently thought it was the perfect time to come out to my mom and go in as a woman. once i woke up realized what i had done i was immediately overwhelmed with anxiety and had multiple panic attacks about it during the first few days. i was convinced that i’d be seen as a disgusting tranny and just be hated, and avoided, by everyone there. to my surprise no one said anything about it my entire stay, they didn’t even make hints about possibly knowing. at first i thought people were being polite just to not cause any trouble, but i was still fully convinced they all knew and i was sure i absolutely wasn’t passing to anyone. then we had a new female intake a couple days later and i was the first person she spoke to, and then out of nowhere she asked if i had since extra tampons she could use till she had someone bring her some… i stuttered a bit and just told her my drug use had killed my period for the past year so i didn’t even think of bringing any myself and the apologized.
after that my perspective started to change but i still mostly assumed she just didn’t happen to realize yet since she was still in detox. after that i started paying attention to any small sign to convince myself that everyone knew, but it never happened, instead it was the complete opposite.
throughout the rest of my stay no one slipped on pronouns a single time or made any obvious hints towards them not just seeing me as a normal woman. surely since people realized right?? how can i walk around forcing myself to live as a twink fag while hiding my chest to ensure no one sees me just going boobs for almost 5 years?? during my stay i was asked for tampons like 4 more times by women that had been there for various lengths of time and ran out.