/soy/ - Soyjaks

Cucked is I think the word.. I’m going to change names but here it goes. Long story short my bf and bf friend and I go to a bar we get pretty drunk and I dance with his friend just for a second, while my bf is in the bathroom harmless right. Nobody cares we get back to dancing more… we drink some more, then call an Uber to take us back home my bf friend follows cause we’re going to smoke when we get back. We smoke and my bf pukes and goes to bed. So now it just me and my bf friend who btw is black, which doesn’t make that much of a difference but kinda does. So we can hear my bf snoring and we make some jokes and he brings up my dance moves and I tell em natural. Then out of nowhere he looks at me dead in the eye and ask me if I’ve ever been with a black guy! Which I nervously laugh and say no and was about to get and go to bed. But he grabbed my arm and put my hand on his crotch. I was disappointed that bf passed out I wanted to get laid but not like this, but I caved. He was bigger than expected and unfortunately he lied about pulling out. So I start to tear up after and cry a little so he leaves, typical… I pull my shit together and slip into bed and I hug my bf in shame. He wakes up ask where “Markus” went and I tell him I think home and say I wasn’t sure. He then feels a second wind and kisses me which I try to seem normal. Then it happened in his drunkenness he goes down on me for like 15 mins and keeps telling me I’m wet, which I didn’t shower. Then he started to fuck me which I felt so terrible I let him do anal. He finished on my chest and he kissed me which all I could think about was that his friend had been in my mouth and in me . I couldn’t sleep so I went and cried in shower with my thoughts. I fucked up so bad, my asshole hurt, my brain hurt. I wanted to die