/soy/ - Soyjaks

>be me 5 years ago
>early hrt and depressed boymoder
>don't pass
>meet another trans girl two years younger then me via dc
>we click and talk for hours
>she is a couple months on hrt and passes really well
>after some time she starts to be really braggy about how well she passes
>uses every opportunity to rub it in how good she is doing and how sorry she is about my appearance
>it hurts really bad but I countinue to be there for her even on her lowest
>Form a really toxic friendship
>we even decide to meet irl and it gets worse
>she full on tells me I'm a hon on several occasions
>sneaks pictures of me
>shines her phone flashlight in my face to "examine it cloesly"
>I'm at my lowest and even start cutting myself because I can't take her torture and the misgendering irl
>she girlmodes freely, dates man and her parents even pay for her ffs
>one time she says to me that talking to me is like someone put the most feminine brain in the body of caitlyn jenner
>we lose contact one day
>ffw 5 years
>got ffs, countless full body laser sessions, learned makeup, voice tranined, effort and gymmaxxed
>my face and body now pass now and I live stealth
>men hit on me
>woman are jealous of my appearance
>have a high paying job and reconnect with my old friends
>they see me as a woman and even forget that I'm trans
>she massages me on dc after years of silence
>she tells me she detransitioned because the pressure was too much
>she got countless surgerys to 'fix her face'
>went to the gym and even got t injections
>she has no friends and her parents are ashamed of her
>she looks like a complet genderfuckery now with short hair and a body raped by t and training upper body
>she tells me shes incredibly sorry and a complet mess now and needs someone to talk
>she regrets everything and want to transition again
>I don't even reply

I cried so many days and nights because of her and now shes at an even worse point the me early hrt.