/soy/ - Soyjaks

I keep having a recurring dream all my life and just had it again last night where my penis falls off and underneath i have a vagina and in the dream I become full of joy and dread.
There is no blood and no balls to speak of. It's just my cock in my hand intact but like sealed at the end almost like a dildo in my hand but it's my flesh. Sometimes in the dreams I flush it down the toilet. Last night in my dream I cut it up with scissors and it was full of blood and I got upset it was gone forever but became happy and then had vaginal sex with my boyfriend and wish I never woke up again.