>>16150320>>16150325how does it feel knowing youll always be a laggard? How does your soul cope with it? It must haunt you how you, a modern, young human being could possibly have overlooked a place once so brilliant, and that if it had occurred to you earlier you certainly would have gotten in. What were you missing in life? How were you just not in tune so that this passed by your perception? Do you wake up every day in pain, the inadequacy churning inside of you? Perhaps the anger makes the pain tolerable.