>>98758 (OP)Do not take the medication OP, anything is better than being a lobotomy patient being fed ZOG medicine.
I have been dealing with depression for a very long time, since before I was even a 'teen. I tried killing myself with a knife this year and all it did was leave a scar, my point being that I understand.
The answer to life is progression of both ones self and surroundings, cultivation of yourself is the only way, everything in life grows and so must you.
What helped me the most was weightlifting, you must find something like this, something that will allow you to not only express yourself but further yourself in a multitude of ways.
But that should not be all, having interests other than a main outlet is essential in improving your current state, especially your mental one. I would implore you to pick up video games and books, even if you have to force yourself to, because sometimes you need to push through a layer of coal that has been amalgamating in order to get to the gems.
Make time for each of your interests, such as doing them in between each other and make sure to take breaks to refresh every so often.
If there are things clouding your mind, just fucking get rid of them. Even if the outcome of removing something or someone from your life may be detrimental in the short term, I promise that in the long term you will be better off as the space where that strain once lay will heal.
Us 'teens need to be helping each other. Keep going nigga, the gems are waiting.