№98029[Quote]
i’ve been in your exact shoes. it might sound a bit cliché, but things really do shift when you least expect it.
i used to be the quiet, awkward kid in class, eating lunch alone every day with zero friends. then i changed school, started smoking and got on zoloft. i was still the akward one, but i was more self-confident, and my social anxiety almost completely vanished.
one day in the school smoking area, i walked up to a packed bench and asked a group of girls if i could sit down since it was the only spot left. they gave me a weird look and laughed, but i honestly didn't care. my old self would have been totally crushed and spiral into self-hatred for days. but, i just moved on.
ffw to now i've made 4 good friends and started dating a girl. i naturally became more outgoing simply because i stopped worrying about everyone else's opinion. what actually draws people in is pure authenticity. when you stop performing and just own who you are, you inevitably attract the people who actually fit your vibe.
№98030[Quote]
>>98029What do you look like bro
№98033[Quote]
>>98023 (OP)> I've looked into potential having schizoid personality disorderThis is not a real disorder. It's just a collection of symptoms that were grouped together and labeled as a disease.
Honestly I'm the same way. The main cause is probably just how you were raised. Kids who have absentee/neglectful parents learn at an early age to be independent, and to avoid forming bonds that would make them rely on another person. Which as an adult produces behavior that looks extremely closed off, and makes a person emotionally detached from the people around them.
№98040[Quote]
>>98029with the bench situation they laughed at you because you asked their permission. if you'd just sit down without a word they wouldn't percieve you as a submissive loser.
>>98033somehow sharty attracts this kind of people
№98069[Quote]
>>98033My parents weren't the most neglectful but yeah they weren't that great. They were pretty old when they had me so they lacked the energy to raise me a lot, my dad was always at work and my mom got annoyed with me easily. They never harmed me but I did spend a disturbing long portion of my childhood alone. It got even worse as I grew older, my parents were even more exhausted now and I had become an incredibly private and reserved person who didn't like interacting with them. I've noticed that I just lack the same desire for social popularity that other people have. I don't want to bother with constantly messaging people, I don't want to use instagoy to post all about my life, I just don't really feel like I can connect with people. At this point I'm not sure if I even want to
№98074[Quote]
>>98040it was cucked but im a people-pleaser and a pussy-whipped faggot because im still insecure and all that
№98075[Quote]
>>98030painfully avg and 5'10
№98077[Quote]
>>98075Then you weren't hopeless