/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

>white woman
>youre not my first!
KEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK DO YT TOILETS REALLY????
FUCKED BY MANY! MUMMA!

It’s okay. She’d be more than I deserve anyway.

I'm not a virgin either so I can't really be too picky, but I would rather have a virgin gf than not so she can pair bond with me and I can at leat pretend that we are sharing something special. I cant say ive had sex with a girl i really loved before though I was just using them to masturbate so maybe it would be a special 'first time' in the loosest sense imaginable. I regret not holding onto my virginity and getting psyopped into thinking pre marital sex is based as a teenager so instead of saving it for a virgin woman I love so we can lose ours together I wasted it on a used up roastie. Full my stupid volcel life it was over before it even began… if I could kill my teenage self with a brick I would for being such a retard and dooming me to the consequences of actions I took before being sentient enough to know they were wrong. Trucels don't know how good they have it, I don't even get the fantasy of romance, all I get is the pungent, oily residue from from reality's unwashed bibisi staining my teeth and clinging to my palate. It is so fucking over

>>96908
You shouldn't worry about this too much. The vast majority of men gain fulfillment from sex via physical pleasure, and women from emotional connection and/or validation.
You experienced this. You fucked to feel good and bust a nut, and I'd bet this roastie probably used you to feel validated.
Sex as a mechanism of pair bonding is far more susceptible to damage in women than men; being promiscous has mental affliction regardless of gender, but due to how women experience sexual pleasure, it is far more damaging to their ability not necessarily to make relationships, but to keep them healthy.
You can look up studies of body count assays and their correlations on rates of divorce, severity of abuse, likelihood of cheating, etc. (I'm sure you have seen the heckin redpill charts spammed, no, I don't have any saved to show you) Universally you will notice an insane gap on how much body count afflicts men vs women, much worse outcomes for women on average.

Note that this is ONLY an average, and people deserve to be judged by more than their spec numbers. There's >0 body count girls who would love you and never cheat, but their rates are extremely lowered compared to virgins.

TL;DR don't worry about it, your pair bonding is probably just fine, there's nothing wrong with wanting a virgin girl, but you should stay honest to your self that maybe you dont "deserve" a virgin girl
also, stop thinking about choking on cock, it can't be helping you (That's a promise, alright?)

>>96920
I don't think about choking on cock more than the average chud, I just wanted to paint colorful image for the reader to fully understand the plight of the wannabe trucel.

I wouldn't suppose there is a large difference in men and women's wants when it comes to sex. Surely there is when it comes to partner selection, but I would argue that emotional fulfillment and validation are just as important to a well adjusted man as the physical act itself. At least for me I assume it is. It also could be neither of my bodies were really my type so I didn't really enjoy fucking them, but even if they were I probably wouldn't be too present because I didn't care that much about them and I would likely be thinking of someone else. Without the emotional connection, I might as well be facing a warm doll. It felt good yes, but it was about on par as using my hand, maybe even worse because sex is much more strenuous than jacking it.

In any case, I don't really deserve a virgin girl because I couldn't stay one myself, and I'm not sure if I even deserve a girlfriend at all. But at the same time, there are millions of men less deserving and thoughtful than me that will snap up all the good women without a care if they deserve it or not. Why should I preclude myself from getting what I want when my competition has no such qualm? If I choose to compete I will not hold back, but I don't know if it us even worth it to try and find a romance of my own. I might just stay celibate for the rest of my life.

Anyway thanks for reading my seca blogpost xister

>>96710 (OP)
I've only ever had sex with virgins and the idea of having sex with a woman with even 1 past sexual partner is offputting to me.
Maybe my standard is a little to high because of my own experience, but I really don't like the idea of using 'used goods' for my own pleasure. It's kind a big turn off.
This increases the more of a whore the woman is.
I barely get off to porn anymore because it's all I think about

>>96710 (OP)
to be expected since it goes both ways

>>96984
>I barely get off to porn anymore because it's all I think about
This doesn't translate to drawn porn weirdly enough

the idea of using someone solely for their innocence is odd snca

If shes a virgin its a lot better. It means that subconsciously she hasn't yet proven to herself that she can just jump to any bastard over the most trivial disagreement. Also I'm a khhv so I'd rather not be the inexperienced one

i don't think anything of it, unless she's been riding the cock carousel and it's been like 10+ men or something