/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

>>96705
no not like dis nusoi

indeed they are

>>96707
we already have this nusoi, its called a 'dakimakura'

>>96705
moooods ban op for suicide announcement

snca blog below

i do think it gets better but at the same time there are parts of life i'll probably never get to enjoy. like family. for some reason neither of my parents ever wanted to form an emotional bond with their children. they never wanted to be around us or talk to us, never showed interest in us, they just fed us and left us alone. this probably messed me up on some level because now i can't form emotional bonds with people. so i think i just want to move to where the weather is really nice and just focus 100% on my passions in life, and just being alone tbh

no it actually got worse

>>96851
seca blog
>this probably messed me up on some level because now i can't form emotional bonds with people
it probably didnt give you the best cards to start with but dont give up on forming bonds with people, the right people will stick around
<plebbit space
what exactly do you struggle with when it comes to the emotional aspects of things?

>>96882
i can tell you how my last friendship went.
we met in college & bonded over being losers. at first we just kinda hung out and played games, but more & more we got to discussing doing a big creative project together like making a video game. eventually i got sick of only talking about it, so i actually started making some games & invited him to participate. and he said he would, but i could never get him to actually do graphics or make music or do anything but just talk about it. and one day he told me his dad just got benefits from the government for being a veteran, which means he would get paid $1000-2000 a month for doing nothing, so he would get hundreds of dollars each month for doing nothing. and he will inherit his parents houses when they die. meanwhile my family is poor.

anyway, i noticed he was never happy to see that i was working on creative projects, but if i messaged him and said, "hey you wanna play video games" or "hey wanna drink?" he would always be happy to hang out. so i realized he was just a "fake friend" I guess. i always supported him when he tried to make music & do better in life, but he didn't appreciate this or want it at all. it was only when i got beers & watched movies with him that he liked being around me. maybe i just got unlucky, but idk. it could be my fault for putting time into a person that didn't deserve it

>>96887
yeah thats a fake friend, i dont think you are fucked up completely sure your parents may have been negligent but modern day people are hedonistic, you really gotta find someone you truly connect with and especially one that has aspirations to do something. Make a game, grow a community, keep it chuddy though, and find some good friends that way.

>>96704 (OP)
snca blog unrelated to other folk

today i had my last first day of school (im a senior im also 18). I've been flirting with this chuddy girl for nearly the past 3 weeks and man she was real good, beautiful, cooks and cleans, works out, says the n word, and i could go on but yeah. i was chatting and yknow we've been flirting and stuffs but she rejected me it sucks but yknow theres not much i can do about it other then take it in pride and use it to improve. Sorry if this comes off as some emo faggotry i like to use this board to cope just like (you) and work out muh feelings as a young man, I dont know maybe you'll gain something from reading my blog.
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anyways its only been a couple of hours and i already sort of feel better, i think im gonna work out and work on my video game. I think what im tryna get at here is that you win some and you loose some, and that you ought to move on from things that you cannot control.

>>96932
awesome mindset man
you have to think of this as a whitepill instead of a brutal blackpill
>good, beautiful, cooks and cleans, works out, says the n word
now you know they exist, and you can talk to them, give it some time and you will wife one up
godspeed