>>95651I got brutally rejected by a girl i had a one-in-a-lifetime crush on in 8th grade and i stopped attempting to get closer with her for the rest of school. She is a bipolar demon but also very neurotic and hyperactive even when not under effects of mood swings, which i really liked. We ended up going to the same university in another city and after some time she started to socialize with me, and eventually asked me out explaining that she didnt realize how good i was. After some time we went on a party, we both got pretty drunk, me especially, i somehow lost her but i was too inebriated to realize this, and that's when i got taken advantage of by an ugly ~187 cm negress, im 181 cm btw. Me and my crush havent had sex with each other and we were both virgins before this happened