№90897[Quote]
ive been having bouts of life fatigue and thinking how absurdly mundane my life has been due to the fact my social life is virtually nonexistent. I just wish i could have a deep and meaningful conversation with someone with whom i dont have to fucking jester or pretend to like for the sake of keeping pleasant company or keeping a reputation since for the past year ive only had like one seriously autistic friend who is turbo terminally online and god every time we hang out its a fucking embarrasmnent to be around
some days i just wish i was brought up normally in my home country instead of dealing with this limbo of being a 2nd gen immigrant where i legit have nothing to be proud of or that i dont know who i am
i might as well have been brought up with no family since i know essentially nothing about my relatives barring my parents and sister, and even then my fucking father is absent and distant and my mother is a narcy bitch who ive just been stonewalling ever since our last argument over a year ago.
it was all from the like the most mundane chore and i asked her to organize and clean out the garden shed with me since there was so much shit piling up and i wanted to try store my bicycle inside, since i didnt want to leave it out of the rain to rot. so i ask her to do it and she initially agrees to it, saying that she’ll do it after lunch. then i ask her a few hours after lunch and she just loses her shit and martyrs herself, bitching throughout the whole thing for no reason and i asked her why are you so angry all of a sudden and she said that i was like forcing her to help me organise the shed (EVEN THO I LITERALLY ASKED BEFOREHAND.) and then when we had to dump some things in the car to transfer it to the recycling centre, i told her that screaming at me for no reason and being such a rude bitch to her son isn’t acceptable, and then she just lost her fucking mind saying that i sound just like my father, that im ungrateful and worthless, i should be hit, if my grandfather was here A etc etc.
on the way back i was just silent and then in my room she just barges in and i literally cried in front of her begging her to try and be a good mother and i just lost it, where i just pointed out all of her retarded narcissistic behaviours (which i can explain if anyones curious) and all she said to me was “you suffered too much”
not even an apology or accounting for herself just the most retarded statement ive ever heard and then left my room after saying “well, i dont have anything to say so.. yeah” so needless to say i just left the bitch speechless
after this bout i just moved out for uni, living in a student dorm to get away from the bitch
i probably have countless more thoughts but i really just want a friend or therapist to talk about this to who is actually intelligent and is thoughtful. my mental health has probably been in the gutter for quite some time and has ruined my studies. but im such a lethargic fuck god
№90898[Quote]
>2nd gen immigrant
annnnnd now I don't care. you sound like a pussy have you considered growing some balls?
№90899[Quote]
Hey man, don't worry.
Being so alone certainly does hurt in many ways.
I think there might be 'teens out there who are willing to talk with you, and who have similar thoughs. Maybe, just maybe, some of them even live nearby, depending on how lucky you are. Being alone is fixable, although it takes time.
It sucks to have such parents too, I kinda see it, being born into such family is really bad, but if you can, try to appreciate things that you already have, at least you're not homeless, and that's kinda nice, isn't it?
Focusing on more positive aspects of your life (no matter how miserable it is) might give a bit of relief, after all, emotional painkillers don't hurt too much.
Also, I recommend trying out religions or other things, those are good distractions and also having a belief in someone who watches after you all the time, and has infinite love for you… It's a good thing.
Aighty, enough SNCA advice, ev&oe you are an immigrant, I still care 'bout ya. Hope everything becomes better, see ya later matey.
№90900[Quote]
>>90898wholeheartedly just kill yourself already
№90901[Quote]
>>90899>but if you can, try to appreciate things that you already have, at least you're not homeless, and that's kinda nice, isn't it?its the bare minimum. sure im grateful i didnt have to starve with drug riddled parents who beat me or that i was raised in some war torn hell-hole and thank fuck otherwise i would actually give up on living
but its what my parents said most the time to make up they cant parent or raise someone for shit. i am so damn unhappy with myself and i have learnt nothing valuable from them
№90911[Quote]
and therapists are shabbos doe
№90921[Quote]
>>90897 (OP)just use an AI chatbot atp. smh goyim are have a built in need to tell everyone about their lives jsid
№90923[Quote]
People like us just aren't ever going to get accepted in society. Spergs are viewed as sub human by the average person, we will always be despised by most of the world's population. The best advice I can give is to try to find fellow sperg friends. If you can't do that then you're probably just gonna have to get used to being lonely. I would heavily recommend being Christian, specifically Orthodox, talking to God is very helpful and it is a faith which lets someone be at peace even while alone.
№90933[Quote]
>>90921i swear some people aren't real on this dnb board
>>90923being around autistic people is exhausting, i just wrote that i have one who is legitimately diagnosed and god i fucking hate being around him. he plays chud agarthan music out in public and we can never have a serious discussion about anything since hes just a retarded ugly edgelord who got groomed by agartha edits or whatever the fuck
so i'd rather not subjugate myself to being around this company. yes i know the snappy snarky is relatable but i have nowhere else to write about. my social life is in tatters
on the religious note: (and everyone who recommended it)
i really can't bring myself to believe in a religion, like it takes another level of copium to believe there is some omnipotent being that loves you and that we have a divine purpose. i never believed in it so why would i pretend to be religious
№90935[Quote]
>>90933>being around autistic people is exhaustingfair enough
>i really can't bring myself to believe in a religion, like it takes another level of copium to believe there is some omnipotent being that loves you and that we have a divine purpose. i never believed in it so why would i pretend to be religiousIt's not cope doe, the majority of people throughout history have been religious, and there is an incredible amount of evidence for the truth of christianity. Atleast try it out, go to a proper church service, research Christianity and see the arguments for it. Even if you're not convinced it won't cost you anything
№90941[Quote]
>>90933When you start to believe and follow Christ's teachings, you will notice that things are starting to improve. Personally I was atheist for pretty much my whole life but when I started praying, he completely healed my mind from negative thoughts and emotions that were bothering me back then.
№90945[Quote]
>>90935>>90941ok, i will at least try to understand the teaches and see what a service is like
and ty, i see your points. usually when people say “find god” they just slap it on for any problems then dont bother explaining why it helped
№90949[Quote]
>>90933why do you goyim HAVE to tell everyone you got diddled on Steve Bazos' Island. keep this shit to yourself you pussy or use an AI chatbot ffs
№90951[Quote]
>>90949nusois whenever the blogposting is used for anything else than admitting their tranny porn addiction or faggotry
№90958[Quote]
>>90951this is a step above that but i would keep it to myself if i was bullied by my own mom and started crying like a bitch to her geg
№90959[Quote]
>>90958you don't know shit about what my mothers like she is a genuine hellspawn and a narcissistic bitch, whenever i lived with her i swear to god we argued every 2 weeks and shouted at each other for hours over the smallest shit ever, from wallpaper being damaged by accident to dropping a fucking plate, where she just loses her mind and then 5 mins after the argument just forgets everything and moves on
i genuinely wish nobody to have a mother like her
№90960[Quote]
>>90959thats just women tbh
№90961[Quote]
>>90898i did this. i say this.
№90962[Quote]
>>90921>just use an AI chatbot atpsoul-less jeet faggot activity.