/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

i think i can speak for everyone here that we just want to live a normal life, and being treated fairly as a human deserves to be. i often daydream a lot and think about what my ideal living situation would be like, and it always comes down to these main things

firstly: being physically and mentally healthy
i want to be able to move around and do stuff on my own without being a clumsy fuck and just being in shape to do moderate physical activities, like going on hikes or being able to travel long distances enjoyably without being a frail fucker
and i also want to stop being such a meek and emotional bitch, constantly looking back at my past and replaying bad memories or times when i was socially ostracized. i just want to be in a healthy, stable state of mind whilst also understanding that emotions are just part of me and its ok to be down sometimes (man that sounds gay but whatever)

secondly: stable, fulfilling work that feels engaging or at least tolerable
i don't know what my dream job is, but i would imagine something where i get to travel around and interact/document different communities and work on demographics/geopolitics, maybe journalism would be cool if i knew how to actually report and write things coherently. i love taking pictures of stuff i find interesting in nature or in architecture and i watch history/demographic documentaries and love the quality in it. theres a good channel on youtube "Doomed To Be Repeated" and also kaiserbauch, those are the types of things i like learning about

thirdly: rich social life and relationships
im going to admit it i am naturally just a simp. im a complete sucker and i probably inherited from my dad since he was always such a pushover with my mother and now his new fiance but anyway
there is really nothing more deeply fulfilling than a rich and reciprocated relationship with a woman who you know you can truly call yours, and can be a consistent loving companion. when i was younger, i used to have a female friend (who we met over 'cord, and i met her through a roblox friend) and we had a lot shared in common, we quickly became best friends and then we briefly e-dated. yeah its cringy but that was probably the happiest time i had been in since most the time my social life is quite empty. we just goofed off in calls and played video games for like 12h straight every day and it was so good. we eventually met up but there was a lot of complications and i fucked up the friendship catastrophically by crashing out on her over snca, and she slowly started to distance herself, up to the point where she threatened to report me to cyberstalking since i was a complete retard and didnt know how to express myself throughout arguments. this is too long but anyway

i'd like to have that again, plus a social circle and have a few close friends that i can rely on when i need shit to be done or when i want to just chill out / hang with, without having to worry about social dynamics or if they're too retarded to be around etc.

idk what else to write, but those are the main things that i always circle back to when i am bored