>>90716 (OP)most likely a jew, if not:
youre already nothing, all of your problems exist in a psuedo reality under the umbrella of psychology
most of your problems get solved the day you say "this is all made up" the rest get solved when you put forth a meaningful action to change them
nobody is going to do it for you, dont be a cuck or a pansy, pick yourself and go again, this time go harder
what you really lack is discipline, and thats why youre going nuclear on the 'arty
we can't help you, that's the best youre going to get