/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

snca blogpost fag here, must be nearly a year since i created my old thread?

im just here to say, dont starve yourself.

i was really insecure about my weight and started heavily restricting my food intake and it worked, i lost a lot of weight. but i have lost too much now. all my pants look huge and slide right off me, my hair started falling out, my stomach is so sensitive and reacts heavily to food now wether that be nausea or bowel pain. i feel extremely lethargic every day and find it hard to wake up and get out of bed.

the thing is i know that i need to gain weight back, i know these issues are being caused by under eating, but i cannot stop. i have an irrational fear of gaining weight and i cannot pinpoint why. i have given myself an eating disorder and i don’t want it to ruin my life.

i’ve started hitting the gym so hopefully that can encourage me to start eating a little better and dissolve my fear since im exercising 3-4 times a week now.

but yeah don’t do it, i should’ve listened. no matter what you think it WILL spiral out of control and you’ll lose all healthy perception on food.