>>88620I wish you were right, but I can't finish anything and I'm starting to seriously doubt if I am capable of creating.
Once a project gets to a certain point, I lose the vision and get stuck and it's really hard to work on it, I get immediately tired when I sit down to work on it and even start to hate it.
I've been trying everything, discipline training, task notes, improving my sleep and diet, deleting all social media and apps from my phone and recently I somehow finally managed to ditch porn for almost a month and becoming immune to urges, yet I steel feel like the same lazy shit. Actually I feel emptier now.
I am genuinely starting to think that I am simply predestined to be a servile goycattle that only consumes, after all, if everyone was creative, it would lose it's value.