/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

my condition has deteriorated

im such a idiot with zero fucking situational awareness and my depression has seemed to lead into two seperate states of mania and the worst fucking feeling ive ever had. both of these last for days but usually my depression will last for a solid month or two and its mildly influenced on my surroundings

im fucking ugly and im skinny as shit, i cant tell my parents because i intend on joining the navy and they'd hound at me get me diagnosed and also lie to me on a daily basis

i couldnt reciprocate to this woman i was interested it so she'd found someone else so i basically have nobody irl around me. i am also really fucking stupid because i constantly disassociate to try and prevent myself from ever thinking about how shit my life is