>>85884 (OP)timepill is brutal
i can relate, hopefully you have a stable and good background and your family supports you, but the truth is nobody is going to save you
yes some people simply have it better off (genetics, upbringing, environments, connections, hell even neurotypicality and neuroticism) but i suggest you focus on those conditions that are within your control, it is a matter of self-determination and willpower
dont give into nihilism, you are still young and beautiful. spend it wisely as you only have one brain and life