№104787[Quote]
yesterday i was suposed to go on an halloween with my ”friends” go for a walk in the city, get a few beers and go to ome of my friends friend party he was hosting. But of course i’ve got spit at my face, one said that he cant got because they are tired from a party they attended day earlier, and the other left me on read and messaged me in the middle of the night later (saying bs like ”Oh sorry anon, i was busy and could not text back”). They probably went to that party, had a lot of fun and just did have the balls to tell me to my face that i am the most socialy akward person to ever walk on this planet. So with no other plan for the night i’ve decided to stay at my home but parents asked me if i am going to the party i was suposed to go, and i lied to their face that the party was moved an hour later and that i’m going for sure. I didn’t want to make them feel bad that their son is an total looser with 2 friends that have befrended me out of pity that only talk to him once per 1-2, ended up going on an 3 hour long walk in the city seeing normies having genuene fun whilst i alone walked in middle of an city like an dirty rag nobody wanted to touch or look at, all that just to make my parents thing that i actualy hafe friends and went to that party. Then i came back to my basement to get drunk and played EU4 till like 3am, could not even go to sleep after that because my fucking le hecking wholsome chungus tranny downstairs neighbour made xis halloween party inviting xeir tranny where most of xem wore silent hill costumes and other trannyslop characters from dead by daylight.
Now i alone sitting in my basement, the phone is dry, the mind is dry, even my cord friends don’t write to me anymore, and anytime i try to write to anyone at this point i feel like some atention starved whore, or even the thought to talking or opening out to talk about problems i have makes me feel like a faggot that is romanticising depression or lonliness. The thing is that when i am actually hanging out with my friends when they didnt have the full group out i fell connected, i feel actually happy to talk to these people as they have same intrests and hobbies as i do, i deeply cherish those moments, but always as the hangout ends i just feel an total apathy, an realisation that only i feel that way about these people and they thing nothing of me, the thought of me being that one filler friend in every group i’ve ever came in contact with haunts me. This situation didn’t come out of some grudge or an conflict, it’s just that some people got more connected as friends, some didn’t, the time just moved on and so did the friendships. Now i am scared of making new friends as the last time i wanted to do that, even more bravely by trying to befriend an woman, i got told to just kill my self or just got classified as an schizo or an autist.
№104801[Quote]
I just started an apprenticeship, all my friends went to uni and the new people im trying to become friends with went to some parties but i wasnt invited to any. I just went home, watched a movie then went to watch some fireworks with my family.
I know how you feel about this. I spent the latter years of high school the same way, i had some people i would have liked to consider friends, but they all went to parties i wasnt invited to and i only got invited to two the entire time. One was a birthday party, and the other i didnt attend because i knew i hated half the people attending it.
Ive consistently felt like i was always someones second, third, fourth, last choice while i would put the people i considered friends as first. It sucks when it gets rubbed in your face they dont value you as much as you value them. Not much you can do about it other than drinking and playing a paradox game like you did, but keep trying to put yourself out there. Eventually you will find someone you click with that also values you and will message first, not just reply. Ive made many autist friends, because they are brutally honest and if they dont "pretend" to be friends out of pity or other bullshit
№104824[Quote]
I've had similar experiences with fake friends. Seemingly everyone either openly dislikes me, or pretends to be friends with me for some reason, which I later realize was the case when they start avoiding me. I decided to give up on socializing and instead spend my time on solitary activites, like reading, video games, and drawing. Dealing with social nonsense just isn't worth it in my opinion. There's better things to do.
№104827[Quote]
>>104787 (OP)It happens to the best of us
Worst case, you will still have a cock to beat and a rope to tie around your neck
The worst isn’t that bad, and you’re practically there already
Therefore, just do whatever you want
Have fun in your life, lose all social anxiety
Maybe looksmax if you want
Cold girls approach if you want (guys for friends too)
Try a martial art if your body can take it
Move to thailand
Do whatever the fuck comes to mind
№104833[Quote]
Damm I'm angry just reading this but I think you are best never depending on these people. Always expect to be disappointed that way when it happens it isn't
>Why the h did they do that to me
It's just
>Flippin normies
It will also make you pleasantly surprised if they are genuinely good people and only flipped up yesterday
№104842[Quote]
livestream it and post your manifesto