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Any particular reason why?
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>>104358I never really had friends in the real life in elementary school it wasn't so bad but since I started high school I've pretty much never talked to anyone i just was sad in my room.
Then after finds out about this site and later about the zarty I've been doing all my socialization there.
Then I started talking to that one person online and we've been talking a lot.
And if i wanted to get something of my chest I would tell her.
And I think that all that kinda changed me that so i default to talking online.
But very recently i cut all contac and stopped talking to that person
And I feel empty and alone but i still can't talk to anyone irl
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>>104363Understandable. Can I ask why you cut her off?
№104371[Quote]
Internet friends are much more interesting
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>>104367So we where just in a friendly relationship but after some time i started developing feelings for her and started loving her.
After that I even told her about(she didn't feel the same way i knew that but i hoped that telling her will make lose that feeling(it didn't))
And I tried talking with her as friends after that but i just felt so terrible especially when hearing about any relations of her and other man.
So I decided that i should just cut her off because that's the only way I'll forget and move forward
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>>104372I still think about her all the time but i think that cuting her of was the only way i can forget and move on
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yep this is exactly what serial experiments lain predicted, youre just going to do all your social interraction through the internet, have zero irl presence, and then wonder why you feel like shit….
in all honesty though, not every conversation you have, irl or not, has to be meaningful or "give you satisfaction". ur autism might make u feel that every conversation has to be interesting, but it rlly doesnt.
dont base ur overall joy on how many people you can talk to and mutually entertain, thats attention seeking. perhaps u just dont like talking to people irl and thats fine, its who u r.
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>>104378Yeah 90% of the time i don't like talking to people irl, but how am i supposed to find any relations if i don't talk to anyone, i honestly don't want much i just want to have a girlfriend and meaby one friend i could trust.
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>>104371Can i ask you where you met your internet friends?
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>>104381its all up to u to determine the outcome of ur life. hope, pray, get lucky, do whatever u require in order to make shit happen thats all i can really say, unfortunately certain things require effort. best advice dont spend ur time coping online to literal whos and try actually thinking for urself or get therapy if ur that retarded
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>>104384Why are you guys so forthcoming with that shit? I’ve never even said that sort of thing to women I’ve known and tried to bang. To not only think that of someone you don’t know, but to go so far as to tell them is just bizarre
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>>104389It got to a point where I was becoming unhealthily obsessive, and I decided that I just had to say because, as painful as cutting contact was, it only would’ve been more painful the longer I kicked that can down the road
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>>104382She was the only internet friend ive had
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>>104410Same with me. She was my first internet friend, and first that, at least I thought, I knew personally (I for sure wasn’t hers), and I haven’t made another
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>>104410Oh I misread your question sorry, I've met her on a voice chat
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>>104412Im thinking about how I should contact her again in abaut a month when i calm down a little, idk if that shit with me loving her will start all over again, but thinking that I'll never talk to her again is just terrible.
I hope that by that time i won't feel anything for her and we can just be friends from there on
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And from this thread it might seem like i blame her for this but all of that is 100% my fault.
Im on a emotional level of a toddler, as soon as one woman didn't immediately cut me off and actually gives me some attention i feel like we where meant for each other and i get obsessed, this happened more than once
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>>104414I hope the same as well. I think leave it around a month and then just try and make contact again naturally, but keep a degree of distance if you know what I mean, make it clear that you're just internet friends and won't attempt to go any further; that's what I'm thinking about doing.
>>104415I think I am largely responsible for letting myself become so unhealthily obsessed with her so quickly, but this is the first time I've ever fell in love and I've never dealt with this before, I was lonely and unhappy and a woman gave me positive attention for the first time so it became an obsession for me. But she definitely gave the impression of being interested and spoke in a flirtatious way, I've reread over everything multiple times I'm sure it was intentional, so either she had feelings and then lost them or was just playing games, I'm not sure.
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>>104435>I've reread over everything multiple times I'm sure it was intentionalIdk women are weird I've had many situations irl when a girl acted flirty to me but i think that most of the time they just do it for fun and don't mean anything by it.
Tbh i don't care much for that kind of stuff, like i don't feel anything.
Buy Actual engagement in any aspect of my life is something that gets me thoes feelings, and its a shame because a girl just tries to be nice to me and i become obsessed and cant even look her in the eyes or speak to her normaly
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>>104436Also I've had a ida to text her today and then just to gradually get this on the right track, cutting her of abruptly was and still is very painful and I think that slowly fading thoes feeling away will be easier
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>>104436>they just do it for fun and don't mean anything by it.Doesn't make it not intentional though, they're just having fun with the attention and validation.
>ike i don't feel anything.I felt a lot, more than what's healthy probably. A lot of days I would just be constantly daydreaming of holding her, and rereading everything at night.
>>104437If you think that's best. Cutting her off was definitely painful for me but I don't think it would've been good for me to drag it on any longer.
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>>104439>>ike i don't feel anything.I felt a lot, more than what's healthy probably. A lot of days I would just be constantly daydreaming of holding her, and rereading everything at night.
No i mean i don't feel anything when thoes girls flirt with me.
With her I feel a lot
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You might have to log off for a while ig
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>>104440Ah okay, so what is it you don't feel anything for?
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>>104439>If you think that's best. Cutting her off was definitely painful for me but I don't think it would've been good for me to drag it on any longer.I mean I'll probably end up hurt again but the thought of taking with her again stays in my head all the time.
And it feels so good that it's worth the suffering later
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>>104442I don't feel anything when a girl is flirty with me it just feels like jokes and play
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>>104445I see
>>104443If you think it's worth it then it's your life
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>>104446Also there's some stuff i forgot to tell her and i feel like I need to
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>>104448What kind of stuff if you don't mind me asking? I've written out all of my thoughts, I found it quite therapeutic, I might send it to her one day
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>>104450>What kind of stuff if you don't mind me asking? Id prefer not to say here.
>I've written out all of my thoughts, I found it quite therapeuticI write a diary
№104453[Quote]
>>104451>I write a diaryThat's cool, it definitely helps to get it all off of your chest.
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>>104367He cut her off because he was rejected
She was Vivian Snow
https://soyjakwiki.org/List_of_doxes/V#Vivian_Roger_Snow_/_Hapa_Foid_/_@femjannyOp stop using that filename or its too obvious for anyone who browses r9k
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>>104458>its Vivian I don't see how that matters