he knows that I know that i'm a loser neet chud. he knows I hate myself and am ashamed of my life. But he never says anything. the scariest thing to imagine is what I look like from the perspective of other people. I legit move and act like a fucking

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i get sad seeing the look on my dad's face. Chud 10/25/26 (Sun) 20:42:05 №104009 [Quote]

he knows that I know that i'm a loser neet chud. he knows I hate myself and am ashamed of my life. But he never says anything.

the scariest thing to imagine is what I look like from the perspective of other people. I legit move and act like a fucking creature. I'm pretty sure my mind blocks this perception from me because it's so painful. The few times I'm exposed to it is when I get high and I'm forced to realize that I am actually a person other people can perceive and I'm overcome with an unbearable amount of shame and embarrassment.

Chud 10/25/26 (Sun) 20:49:55 №104013 [Quote]

Have you actually done something about this OP?

If you expressed a desire to say, get a job, to your dad, i'm sure he would try to help you out. He obviously cares enough about you to keep his mouth shut eve&oe hes ashamed of you. It would make him happy if you tried to do something. Literally anybody can get a job, even the spergiest of retards. Being a cleaner or something is better than sitting all day at your computer bathing in self-hatred.

Also stop doing drugs. You are an actual loser if you are getting high on your parents money. If you are actually mentally ill and meds would get you off your arse, then maybe you need to get diagnosed and get some. Because its not right to do this to your family.