>>103842 (OP)I was 18 and dating my first real girlfriend for a few weeks, maybe about a month. We were hanging out in the park we would usually hang in before I had to go to work since it was usually the only place we could spend time together alone without raising suspicion or being too far from work. Suddenly she just asked if I wanted to kiss and I said sure, so she started putting lipstick on. I playfully pointed it out to her that she definitely had this premeditated and she was going to make a mess on my face. Weirdly, I find the context surrounding the event more memorable than the actual kiss, but unsurprisingly, I was awkward and bad at kissing as I didn't understand the pucker motion. I told her beforehand this was my first time and she seemed to enjoy that if anything. After that, she would start kissing me all over my face to get kiss marks on my face then we probably cuddled afterwards. I did enjoy the physical intimacy, but if I'm being honest then I don't care for her as a person and I kind of wish I never did any of that.