/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

Ive completely ruined my life. I had the opportunity to have my college completely paid for plus supplies and I blew it by telling the wrong people the wrong things. I lost every single one of my friends irl and I got sent to a fucking mental hospital and now I'm suspended until next year and I know after their review my college is going to find me unsuitable to continue going there. I'm unemployed with a huge resume gap so I'm leeching off my single mother and I feel like a fucking parasite every time I wake up because I am. I can't even buy a firearm to go shooting anymore since my state bans people who have been involuntarily institutionalized from owning them. I have literally zero things to look forward to no school no friends no relationship. Im an ugly worthless fucking shitstain on the bottom of the world's mattress and I cant even take myself out the way I want to because the government is kiked. Fuck this stupid shit Im sick of feeling like this I just want to be happy again for fuck sake is that too much to ask for?