/r9k/ - Does anyone else not really remember their life? I'm 19 now, and I feel like I really don't have many memories of my childhood/teenage years. I've heard that can be a symptom of depression? I spent almost a lot of my days from 14

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Chud 10/06/26 (Tue) 09:27:10 №102029 [Quote]

Does anyone else not really remember their life? I'm 19 now, and I feel like I really don't have many memories of my childhood/teenage years. I've heard that can be a symptom of depression? I spent almost a lot of my days from 14 - 18 sleeping all day, so it could have been that. I've also heard people talk about memory loss due to trauma, and while I was never molested or anything, I've basically been living with suicidal depression since I was 12.

It's kind of a bummer to not really remember much of my life, and it can be really embarrassing at times. Does anyone else relate?

Chud 10/06/26 (Tue) 11:56:23 №102032 [Quote]

27 here and yeah, same.
My mom made sure to give me as many great and amazing childhood experiences as possible but most of them were left forgotten, i only remember everything that hurt me.

Chud 10/06/26 (Tue) 15:35:02 №102041 [Quote]

Im 18 and had a similar teenage experience, and I don't have anyone to blame other than myself. I know my pre secondary school life was good, but that was <11, so I don't remember much. I had the ages of 12-14 fucked by the lockdowns, I did nothing but rot in bed and watch youtube between 14-16, and from 16-18 I had my exam years and spent my free time watching jewtube. Now that I'm at uni away from home I wish I had spent my time better. I could have been spending more time with my family, I could have been doing some sort of hobby, and instead I spent my time online. I've been depressed from ~15 until I guess about a year or two ago? It would get to the point of suicidal ideation in the winter, but I never attentionfag self harmed and I toughed it out until spring came. I can't give any advice on getting rid of it, I guess I just lied to myself and gave myself a stronger ego and maybe just got bored of being a miserable fuck. Socialising more helped, and also making an effort to go outside if I felt miserable. Staying at home or in front of a computer is terrible for your mental health.

I don't remember much at all from late 2019 - 2024. My secondary school life was from autumn 2019 - spring 2026 and I don't remember much other than the last 2 years when I moved on to 6th form and socialised a bit more and did some shit. Some of my friends would bring up something that happened in the Covid years and I would normally blank, I only remember vague details.

Chud 10/06/26 (Tue) 15:37:53 №102044 [Quote]

There’s nothing good to remember.

Chud 10/06/26 (Tue) 18:34:55 №102067 [Quote]

i guess i remember only the worst shit, i dont remember anything good im just hateful of the things i remember and terrified to death of the future

Chud 10/06/26 (Tue) 23:07:17 №102110 [Quote]

>>102067
I'm jealous of those who had good childhoods
I'm fearful I'll waste what little youth I have left in me

Chud 10/07/26 (Wed) 01:50:00 №102122 [Quote]

>>102041
I don't know how I didn't think of this, Covid lock downs definitely had an effect.

Chud 10/07/26 (Wed) 01:52:44 №102123 [Quote]

It kinda happens to me. I can remember vividly shit from years ago but if you ask me about a few weeks ago, i honestly could not answer