/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

It’s not too late OP. Get some help and call 988 the national Suicide helpline of America (I’m assuming you live there).

>>100570
wtf is calling a phone number going to do for me?
also i have been in this headspace for like almost 2 years and i haven't done anything so maybe i still won't do anything. my bday isn't for another 2.5 months anyway

>>100572
911 is the national emergency number in the United States.
211 is a phone number in the United States for people in crisis who need emergency referrals to social and community services but are not experiencing an immediate life-threatening emergency. Services available vary by state.
The 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (https://988lifeline.org/) is a 24-hour, toll-free, confidential suicide prevention hotline available to anyone in suicidal crisis or emotional distress. It provides Spanish-speaking counselors, as well as options for deaf and hard of hearing individuals. It is only available in the United States. A 24-hour online chat service is also available.
The 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline can be reached at 988.
The Lifeline's previous number, 1–800–273–8255, can still be dialed at anytime.
Nacional de Prevención del Suicidio: 1–888–628–9454
Deaf or Hard of Hearing: Use your preferred relay service or dial 711 then 988

c'mon let's see you do it pussy

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>>100574
i'm not gonna live stream it retard
>>100575
read the thread fucker i'm not doing it NOWWW

you will only make it worse for yourself if you attempt suicide, what if you end up fucking your face up and not dying
stop thinking that the only way to deal with those feelings is by cutting it short. you have a lot of time and it takes time to develop into something beautiful so why dont you start doing that
you dont want to waste your potential

>>100577
i'm gonna do an exit bag so no physical deformities although i might get brain damage if i fail
also yeah whatever i can put in effort to get better but i am very lazy. being lazy is a good reason why someone should deserve to die, also.
just ending my existence literally solves every single problem that i could ever concieve of or which could ever in the future afflict me so i really don't see how from an egocentric perspective it can be a bad thing. although i would cause IMMENSE anguish to my family which is probably the reason i won't end up doing it.

>>100578
dont, do you want the people who care and nourished you the most to be grieving horribly because of your decision? if you could live a second life how would that remorse settle in for you
>also yeah whatever i can put in effort to get better but i am very lazy. being lazy is a good reason why someone should deserve to die, also.
because you arent making your efforts a habit. i had a similar issue because i would do it once or twice and then stop but when i began to remind myself i was able to get good habits in motion easily

killing yourself is pussy behavior

>>100579
>do you want the people who care and nourished you the most to be grieving horribly because of your decision
i absolutely do not want this. but one day my selfishness will override the sorriness i have for hurting them. or at least it will be diminished in my mind at the critical moment of despair.
>habits
i believe you. i really do. and i like aristotle. i also tried a few years ago to "get better" and be more disciplined and do things but yeah after a few times i just gave up because no results – obviously no results because i only did it for a short time.
i'm just tired. i sound like a baby whining. i don't wanna!
i know i know i know it's my habits and its MY OWN CHOICE and WILL that will get my into these habits and ultimately no one else can do it FOR me. the responsibility is mine alone.
idk maybe i need to take drugs or something. shrooms or antidepressants. whatever. chemicals won't solve a problem which is just me being a piece of shit and REFUSING to take any action to be a better version of myself.
the fact i would consider even killing myself when i know it will cause people pain makes me a HORRIBLE son and brother and grandson and nephew and cousin and everything.
the sad thing is that i will do it some day or another. there is no way i'm going to die of old age with my wife and kids holding my hand. i'll just be in a gray apartment and probably get laid off and then just end it unceremoniously and everyone will have been able to see if from a distance away. no suprises.
or i could be a martyr and die young and it would be a bit more tragic and poetic instead of just being some fucking bum loser incel unc
>>100582
waoahhh1!! admin!
yes and pussies deserve to DIE!

>>100584
do it for a longer period then, if you feel like drugs would help you then take them unironically
you have full control over your body and what you can do with it, so use it to improve yourself not kill yourself
the sad thing is that i will do it some day or another. >there is no way i'm going to die of old age with my wife and kids holding my hand. i'll just be in a gray apartment and probably get laid off and then just end it unceremoniously and everyone will have been able to see if from a distance away. no suprises.
life works in weird ways, you can change the trajectory of that yourself

fuck i failquoted

all of this just for this to be a copypasta from koot poot moot toot rapeoot era

If you really do want to kill yourself, atleast die a hero or some shit. Just go around walking into the sketchiest parts of your town/city and wait until someone gets mugged so you can step in, try to save them, then probably get shot or some shit. Idk. But don't die a coward.

OP I really hope this is a dedicated bait but in the scenario of it being real just know that we care for you, your parents and friends WILL miss you and WILL be devastated if you are suddenly gone, they love you, and so do we.

>>100586
>if you feel like drugs would help you then take them unironically
yeah. my parents are very hesitant with that kind of stuff though. would probably take something as drastic as an attempt to make them consider it a viable option.
or i just gotta wait a few years to get my own insurance.
or i can just abuse alcohol maybe. but i'm normally a very good boy who follows all the rules.
sigh, i'll just wake up and study and do well on my tests and everything. this too shall pass … until i have another bad night in a week or two.
>>100590
SIGH. idk i'm just having a rough evening.

PS. thanks for being nice all i'm just in a bad mood tn, probably gonna close this thread so i can get some zzzs

>>100591
>yeah. my parents are very hesitant with that kind of stuff though. would probably take something as drastic as an attempt to make them consider it a viable option.
if your parents have a very deep care about you, open up to them about your grievances, you would be able to persuade them easily from that
sleep well and i wish you a good night OP

>>100592
dats aryan shemmycuck

dont do it, get off the site and go outside
trust me this works

>>100582
i hope he didnt kill himself