>>100031jesus tried to offer himself for the worlds sins and unfortunately satan still runs the show. i take it you are a christcuck? then think for a moment, did god put you on this earth to die? or did he put you on this earth to fight to establish his kingdom on earth in any little way you can? if he wanted you to die he would just kill you himself. it is not for a wrench to snap itself in half simply because it feels the bolt is too hard to turn. you were made to work, and ideating about death is a rejection of your moral imperative to spread the gospel and your faith in the lord. you will rest when he lets you, until then you must take up your cross and follow christ.