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i got the body of a circasian Guerrila soldier but the mannerisms of a 14 year old anorexic rape victim foid
im thrembling and scared and paranoid and sad and i feel frail and weak and small all the time even if im a hulking ogree looking nigga
sometimes i feel like im 5 year old me trapped in the body of a adult, i don't feel like im a different person, im scared, very very scared, i just want my mom, i want to hide in the dark, and cry, because im very very scared
i don't know what the future awaits for me, and I don't like my current present
every time i look in the mirror i see someone that shouldn't be
im a error? a failed men? a rest? a outcast?
was i born to be part of the scraps of society?
i wish i was a simpler man, but I can't, why must i think so much? why must i be myself so much? im tired, im tired of being scared, yet im not brave enough to stand up for myself
im a stranger even amongst my own family, im a enemy to everyone and myself, im unlovable, unfriendable, everyone Hates me
the person i am online is unlikable just as the person i am in real life
my two faces, my mind and my body, both, undesirable
maybe the Lebanese is right, maybe we do deserve genocide, maybe i am inferior, subhuman, maybe i should just give up
yet I won't, because im too scared to even think of doing that
im paralyzed still, I won't move any further down, yet i won't climb any further up
im alive, i won't stop being alive, and il live, but like this, until a ripe old age
unloved, with nobody to really know
my mind is a prison of my own making and im it's only prisoner
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>>4026236you don't have a soul of your own do you?
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il go to sleep
i hope, i have hope
i don't know for what it were but i do
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>>4026233 (OP)The tiredness of living will eventually outweigh the fear of death.
Soon, you'll finally be free of those mental shackles.
It's a matter of how long you can endure untill the madness takes over.
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>>4026233 (OP)you have to stop jerking off and isolating yourself
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snca
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>>4026255i don't want to give up, i can't
>>4026258im scared of the outside world
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>>4026260You didn't use that word correctly.
I challenge you to explain how it's used in the right context, otherwise fuck off to another thread with your low effort responses.
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>>4026236Imagine the strenght of his poundings…
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>>4026267Being scared is gay btw
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>>4026265Do you think waiting, sitting around in fear will suddenly make things better? What are you even holding out for? Why do you want to integrate into a world that's already hostile enough to you
Are you a masochist?
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>>4026266larp means "live action roleplay" and its used to refer to people who pretend to be something that they're really not
You are, by definition, a larping faggot. You larp as a fearless man who's ascended beyond his biological fear of dying whilst in reality you're a faggot sitting on his ass complaining about politics on an imageboard whilst not actually putting any of it into practice. All you do is talk, meaningless. Your words only hold so much meaning as the actions that accompany them. Your opinions are worthless. Tldr: you're a big fat larper.
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>>>4026266 (You)
>larp means "live action roleplay" and its used to refer to people who pretend to be something that they're really not
>You are, by definition, a larping faggot. You larp as a fearless man who's ascended beyond his biological fear of dying whilst in reality you're a faggot sitting on his ass complaining about politics on an imageboard whilst not actually putting any of it into practice. All you do is talk, meaningless. Your words only hold so much meaning as the actions that accompany them. Your opinions are worthless. Tldr: you're a big fat larper.
DNR past live action roleplay.
Congrats retard you've already proven your idiocy to me.
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>>4026277>I have a ten second attention span and cannot read two sentences back to back not the flex you think it is. Do you want me to make a sigma phonk edit with what I wrote so your tiny brain can process it?
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>>4026276The term is apart of a roleplay session where filled with larpER's and the overseer of it all, however this is not "roleplay" and roleplay wouldn't even be the fitting term, it would be masqerade, or posing.
You're also projecting, I'm not "complaining about politics" I never even mentioned it.
Politics are apart of the bread and circus, as in the end, both will lead to the same inevitable result.
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i need a job, i need a purpose in life, i need to integrate myself into society, i need to talk to people, i need friends, i need a house, i need a wife, i need to have children, i need to be productive, i need to contribute to society, i need to go to church, i need to engage myself in politics, i need to learn, read, go to a college, learn an instrument, learn to write, i need contacts, friends, i need to know my family
i need to be a human being
but im scared, i don't think i can, i don't think they'll accept me, or like me, or that I'll succeed
>>4026273im too comfortable to wake up and too scared to live
maybe i am
>>4026270then i am gay
i like woman, but im gay, if thats who i am, then thats who i am
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im heterosexual which its a gay word
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Gaucho, about the unknown conditions, I think it's about time you need an increase in meds and a new diagnosis, you're not good in the head, dog
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>>4026283Are you trying to fucking poison him with jewification?
What is "meds" gonna do besides give him erectile dysfunction.
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>>4026281Has a woman ever been interested in you?
Or do you lust for something that'll never happen.
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>>4026281You young yet bro, it's not the end of the world not having theses things at 18 😂✌️
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>>4026279>ER>Politics are apart of the bread and circus, as in the end, both will lead to the same inevitable result.Oh so edgy art thou. Kill yourself edgelord branigger faggot
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>>4026284Make him as normal as one can be to the standards of our brvtal society. In his current state, he won't make it far anyway, so who cares about "poison", you talk like a wompa
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>>4026290Trve, this is why we sacrificed cacas to Baal
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>>4026288Faggot? Because my perspective is within a higher plane of existence from yours? Comedical…
Tell me, what is the difference, how will either side lead to prosperity.
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>>4026293ohnonono , we kill baal
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>>4026295>my perspective is within a higher plane of existence from yours? Comedical…Typa shit niggas will say after reading Nietzche once geg… You're not that guy pal
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>>4026283>>4026284>>4026286>>4026287no woman ever loved me, im still a virgin, a incel
i am young
il not use any medication, the 2 drugs i use are already enough + im against drug usage
id rather stay this way than be numb
also id probably not be fully capable of expressing myself to get any different diagnosis
autism and adhd is all i have officially, the rest is just emotional problems
i don't think i can express myself irl, well, i know i can
this app, is literally the only place EVER i say these things
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you guys know more about me then my mom
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>>4026289Fuck society, fuck their rules, fuck their social expectations.
Everything about it is so arbitrary, no nonsensical, and to go against their ideals marks you as a target.
You'd be crazy in their eyes if you didn't follow the trend, or regurgitate whatever's popular alongside them.
They're golems, raised by the system and act as if they're enlightened, speaking on behalf of problems that they repeat over and over… and I must say that humans have been gifted with intelligence, such great minds… shouldn't these gifts be taken back?
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my perspective is within a higher plane of existence from yours doe
all of you
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>>4026298youre still 18 women wont rain on you at 18 unless you were a god
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>>4026300Yet you have to go get groceries Monday, no? Or does your mama do that for you? Retard. Think 20 years ahead of you, does the arbitrary line change any of that. He needs to be in a right state of mind
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my only plan to getting a girlfriend is to show myself in places
wait until some foid sees me
kidnaps me or tries to talk to me or invite me to something or anything
and then boom i got a gf
besides that il probably stay single forever
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>>4026297Nietzsche… No, Goatis is a pretty good philosopher though, you should check him out. Maybe you'll have a change of your idiotic worldview, I'd hope to cleanse you of your brainwashing, so that you ALL can see the world that I see…
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>>4026300I think it's a bit misleading to assume society is automatically hostile to anyone that slightly deviates from social norms
No normie has ever changed the course of history, only people whom have deviated from the average have. Does this mean all of them are vilified? Not necessarily. Some are, but not all.
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>>4026307>goatisOkay you have to be trolling atp didnt the guy try to kill his wife or something
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>>4026304Hey jackass, can you stop arguing with me for like 2 minutes?
He needs to be in the right state of mind? Stop shoving lies and nonsense up his ass… HIS BEHAVIOR IS A NATURAL REACTION TO THE ENVIRONMENT AROUND HIM…
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>>4026298Most of the ones your age are virgins (except favelados who have fathered 5). How about "I'm already medicated, I don't think it's enough because I'm fucked" for starters
<Goddamn, it's amazing how GOKU and I abused every toxic, life-ending shit in the world and you niggas are more fucked than us regardless
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>>4026307isn't goatis a complete imbecile?
no thank you il stay in my vague religious schizoprenic personal beliefs
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>>4026313Natural doesn't mean good. We are going to artificially condition him into a better self, a fake one, but an improved one
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>>>4026307 (You)
>>goatis
>Okay you have to be trolling atp didnt the guy try to kill his wife or something
"ERM DIDN'T THIS FUCKING EVIL RAWMEAT PARASITE INFESTED BRAINWASHER TRY TO KILL HIS WIFEE?"
No, she attacked him with a knife and he defended himself.
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>>4026310i know im working on that
i still want to feel loved, that's something thats missing on me and i don't know if i can be 100% complete without that
friends would help, real friends
>>4026314you guys should stop with the medications
its bad for you
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>>4026318Oh is that so? I'm sorry, I'm not very informed about the dude and his beliefs but generally speaking I think anyone who advocates for eating raw meat is a retard. Cavemen were able to figure out that you have to cook it to not get sick. Cook your fucking food you morons.
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>>>4026313 (You)
>Natural doesn't mean good. We are going to artificially condition him into a better self, a fake one, but an improved one
an "improved one" is molesting his character, and superseding it with a mask that will never contain the true contents within… you are going to inseminate and rape him? and I ask why go to such great lengths to do this? It's like a bunch of sand golems, making more sand golems…
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>>4026317you aren't going to do nothing nigger
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i shouldn't have oppened up you guys are clearly worst than me
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>>4026321If he stops taking the two meds he already takes, his life would be unbearable, he would not function nigga. Some people are just not meant to be
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why should i have trusted you guys
all of you hate me and are disgusted by me and find me inferior
jsid
fuck it
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>>4026320"Raw meat and raw milk is bad for you"
Tell that to the dinka and otber nomadic tribes who are + 6 foot on average with robust facial features… you know you're really fucking brainwashed, you seriously believe anything the elites and doctors tell you.
" EAT MUH HEALTHY VEGETABLEEESSS, EAT MUHHH SOYBEAN PRODUCTSSS AND YOU'LL BE GURANTEED A LIFE OF LONGEVITY AND NOT A FAG WITH A B12 DEFICIENCY."
Hey… I'm really starting to want to fucking annihilate you right now, so why don't you stop messaging for a few? K?
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>>4026325just be a caveman bro
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>>4026324if i stoped id move to Brasilia to personally kill your mom
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>>4026327i though about that
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>>4026325Get a new diagnosis retard, you don't have just what you think you have
>>4026328Not before killing your family with a kitchen knife
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>>4026298Good, you don't need a woman.
They'll only put you down. Center
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>>4026326God created this world for us to use it
you cannot reject part of his gifts without loosing a fundamental aspect of mankind
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>>4026323dw chud we love you
Honestly I think you should just go outside more. Chances are if you found your way to this site you probably isolate a lot and tend to keep to yourself. Dont do that. Go out and speak to people more. Go to college or to the gym or become a musician and bond with people who also make music. It doesnt matter what, just do something. I used to be scared of people too but the only thing that really works to rid yourself of an irrational fear is exposure therapy
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>>4026319May sound faggy but you nid to get more social contact and learn how to love yourself first, needing codependence in pipo to make yourself happy is bad, but humans are also social demons we ned friends
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>>>4026326 (You)
>God created this world for us to use it
>you cannot reject part of his gifts without loosing a fundamental aspect of mankind
So we should be wiping our ass with poison ivy just because it came from god? We evolved to eat the flesh of meat…WE ARE BEASTS, WE YEARN FOR THE GUTS OF THE OTHER SPECIES… WHO BRAINWASHED YOU INTO BELIEVING THAT TO NOT BE THE CASE.
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>>4026326>you said you shouldnt eat your meat raw, so that means you think you should feed on seed oils and soy sludgeHoly strawman batman
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>>4026331why are you like this
you clearly hate me and want me to die And find me inferior and want me gone
i don't trust what you say
you are a bad person and il not interact to you no longer
same for the dutch vpn, for me you and him are just two coins of the same mind raped spectrum
the total rejection of what man can do and the total reliance upon it
God created Us to be part of the world not separate from it, yet we weren't ment to live in ourselves
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>>>4026326 (You)
>>you said you shouldnt eat your meat raw, so that means you think you should feed on seed oils and soy sludge
>Holy strawman batman
Ok queer, what is the ideal diet in your eyes…
I've fermented meat in a dark cabinet for 30 days, ate it, and I started to feel so euphoric that I nearly came in my own pants. Has any other food done that for you? If not then understand I am more knowledgeable than you and verbally admit it.
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>>4026337you are a human, and by rejecting who you are you will be divinity punished
you will die, because of your insolence and the rejection of Gods divinity Designed order
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>>4026347tell god to fix your life your stupid nigger
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>>>4026331
>why are you like this
>you clearly hate me and want me to die And find me inferior and want me gone
>i don't trust what you say
>you are a bad person and il not interact to you no longer
>same for the dutch vpn, for me you and him are just two coins of the same mind raped spectrum
>the total rejection of what man can do and the total reliance upon it
>God created Us to be part of the world not separate from it, yet we weren't ment to live in ourselves
You live simply for the purpose of wanting to connect with others who have no use for you, you yearn for people even though you have nothing that's worthy of any offer.
Let me guess? Your love? It's meaningless in their eyes. Besides a woman would probably laugh at you the second you pull ur pants down.
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>>4026341I don't hate you doe, I believe you are either the greatest baiter this board has ever seen or in need of 30 more pills daily to not be defective
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>>4026347Rejecting who I am?
It's in reverse here, go inseminate urself into an artifically destroyed, industrial hell where long nosed toucans rule over such an idiocracy… and tell me how you feel when you're a zombie… any better?
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>>4026344ideal diet:
Animal meats
vegetables (carrots and tomatoes)
fruits
grains
tubers (potatos won)
other animal by products (skins milks smoked meats)
for wearing: leathers skins and furs
place of living: hill, valley, wooden cabin, water sourced from rain
a big herd of animals, specialty sheep, pigs, cows, chickens, maybe even some other more exotic ones if you're fancy
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>>>4026344 (You)
>ideal diet:
>Animal meats
>vegetables (carrots and tomatoes)
>fruits
>grains
>tubers (potatos won)
>other animal by products (skins milks smoked meats)
>for wearing: leathers skins and furs
>place of living: hill, valley, wooden cabin, water sourced from rain
>a big herd of animals, specialty sheep, pigs, cows, chickens, maybe even some other more exotic ones if you're fancy
Do you eat or do any of this?
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>>4026352Carboidrates vvqn
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>>4026348no
>>4026350im 100% honest
you should stop being so reliant on medicine, its frying your brain, and turning you into cattle
>>4026349projection
>>4026353yes
used to, with my dad, when i was younger
not any more, he is sick, and im, not very connected with the more rural side of my family
i eat plenty, my diet is balanced, mostly meat heavy, i love meat, fried, smoked, cooked, baked
salamis are my favorite, aldoe it gives you cancer
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>>>4026344 (You)
>ideal diet:
>Animal meats
>vegetables (carrots and tomatoes)
>fruits
>grains
>tubers (potatos won)
>other animal by products (skins milks smoked meats)
>for wearing: leathers skins and furs
>place of living: hill, valley, wooden cabin, water sourced from rain
>a big herd of animals, specialty sheep, pigs, cows, chickens, maybe even some other more exotic ones if you're fancy
Grains= low nutrient slop used to feed large amounts of people as a substitute for meat.
Potatoes: Unsustainable ration food used to feed large amounts of people because there wasn't enough meat to go around.
Vegetables: Absord calcium in the body, and release toxic chemicals because they don't want to be eaten.
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>>4026356tsmt
>>4026354moderation is key
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>>4026356That is ideologically incoherent. To recognize that all humans are parasites of nature's resources requires you to recognize the fact that you are a parasite aswell.
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>>4026356NO. LIVES. MATTER.
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>>4026361I am aware. It's a coping mechanism. But I'm not gonna kill myself or harm myself just because people are assholes.
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>>4026358i take all of these bad foods scoup them all toguether in a bun with 500 kg of salami and gobble it all down
im eating poison? good, im strong boddied, I can handle it, we were made to eat poisons, God made us this way
milk was a poison but here we are
>>4026361theres a few enlightened amongst the sheep
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>>4026356No such thing as horrid bastards, you are so brainwashed that you consider them to be "le evil" for barring you outside of their practicions when it's really a blessing in disguise…
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>>4026358It taste good doe
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society is hierarchical
nobody is equal, nobody is identical, there are people better than others, and people fit for different roles than others
in a ideal society we would recognize this
this ideal society already existed
but now? nothing remains
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>>4026367id rather die and stay true to who I am than become a husk powered by adrenochrome to slave away for your Lebanese friends
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>>4026365People aren't any worse towards me than they are towards others. It's just that I think most of human interaction is very shallow. Intimacy, friendship and whatnot are very sacred, and modern society makes a complete joke of those things. It sickens me.
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>>4026370that one mike ma quote someone find it
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>>>4026361 (You)
>I am aware. It's a coping mechanism. But I'm not gonna kill myself or harm myself just because people are assholes.
You'll be able too soon… There is a forseeable future, that's within our lifetime…Where everyone comes falling, crashing down, the street's overflown with those of the mundanes blood, mass hysteria, the sounds of crys, a mist of blood, faces being deconstructed by bullet fire, a complete and total evisceration of any sort of civil manners, a world of terror, a world engulfed in ruination and despair, and I've dreamt about this everysingle day.
And within the time that these temporal days of decadence is over… that is when I can truly call myself alive.
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GUYS IL GO TO SLEEP
I FEEL A LITTLE BETTER NOW BECAUSE I TOOK SOME MEDS
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>>4026370>>4026356You shoulndt be thinking so much about other pipo, xhey don't give a fuck about you or anyone else but themselves and loved ones, just live and ignore everyone else
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>GUYS IL GO TO SLEEP
>I FEEL A LITTLE BETTER NOW BECAUSE I TOOK SOME MEDS
You've betrayed urself.
You've raped urself, as you sleep you will picture your ideal woman…You'll desire to grasp her, you'll reach out for her…sadly, tis but a dream…
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Society won, just not this one
>>4026378i know this is bait now
you told me
nobody is sincere
truth isn't real
we live in a world of lies
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>Alright fine here's some goy advice for you,if you feel sad just eat and overstimulate yourself with media untill your brain stops producing new self hating thoughts,thats all
Destroying your gut microbiome will only depress you.
That's why eating and consuming media is giga-cope.
Your brain subconciously pictures it's corporeal self, the only way to escape this would be to turn your brain off… and how would you do that?
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>>4026381Get a new diagnosis, you need more meds
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>>4026378i wish you weren't joking all the time
my existence is a biproduct of your ways you know that
your existance and way of life directly and indirectly affect me and the people around me and society as a whole
>>4026388you talk like a true drug addict
disgusting
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>>4026391Gaucho, you were not meant to be. Your genetics and environment predisposed you to this
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remove all those drugs from your body and you're nothing
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you would be roping right fucking now
you talk all mighty and superior but youre nothing but a addict in a sea of lies
your world is a phantasy, a creation of a medicinal class that would rather see you dead
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>>4026402Jesus gaucho you speak like a cord e girl whos chronically online