>>3807718 (OP)Two weeks ago I was driving in the middle of the night and thought about the possibility that I was a trans woman. In that moment, it legitimately felt like I had been repressing something and realized something about myself. Started whimpering to myself, saying no repeatedly. It actually felt like I was a tranny in that moment.
Two nights later I thought about that breakdown I had, and it felt so alien. The idea that I was a trans woman was legitimately unthinkable. It honestly disturbed me and I talked to a counselor about it. She said I might have a bimodal sexuality which means my sexuality isn't tied to one role but encompasses the whole spectrum.
I don't know that breakdown startled me man. That was fucking weird. I don't like admitting it but yes, in that one moment I felt like trooning out. And I have thought about being a femboy in the past. Some days I feel very masculine, some I feel more feminine. I told two people at the therapy clinic that it's like there's 3 or 4 people living in me. I don't like this.