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>>3611338Yeah well I'm still going through it. I beg you guys I beg you guys please help me
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Ok, calm down my nigga, breathe slowly, when you've done that tell me and i'll tell you the next step
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>>3611342I'm breathing slowly, I am in bed and my body is relaxed but it feels weird when I'm not aggressively shaking my leg or feet. But I'm completely still now
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>>3611342HES BAITING!!!! someone recomended him to take benzo and a few hours later this nigga made a thread talking about how he was addicted to benzo
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>>3611343Ok, now that you're still, go grab some water, calmly, dont rush it and take your time, while you breathe slowly
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>>3611344That's not accurate at all. I was talking about the withdrawal process and how it made me felt normal and there were two guys that said I shouldn't take it and one guy said I should continue
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>>3611344Geg, i still want to talk to someone doe so i guess i'll help him o algo
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>>3611344How the Benzos made me feel normal when I was on it *
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>>3611351dam that nigga gettin his cheeks clapped 🤤🤤🤤
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Why is it always the white and red flags on /pol/ who are the gayest
Poland and Georgia gotta be the faggiest posters i stg
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>>3611355Because blue and white is more giga
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>>3611346I drank some water
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>>3611359nhhhhhhhhh 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 br drk sm wtr 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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>>3611359Ok, now i need you to keep calm, and leave the site, i dont know what hour is in canada, but the moment is the day, you should go to a doctor, or call a hotline, i think thats all i can do, take a break from stimulation, if you truly cant help it, call an addiction hotline, stay safe man, i know you can do it
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>>3611364This is like the worst advice ever, I'm literally shaking in fear and I can't even talk to anyone.
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don't tell the authorities nigga they'll put you on MAID. Genuinely concerned for your life, benzo withdrawals are a nightmare
№3611367[Quote]
>>3611365This is why you need to call a hotline
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>>3611334 (OP)HASh Slava Bogu 🙏❤️SLAVA ROSSII 🙏❤️ANGELA KhRANITELYa KAZhDOMU IZ VAS 🙏❤️BOZhE KhRANI ROSSIYu 🙏❤️SPASIBO VAM NAShI MAL'ChIKI 🙏❤️RU ChTO PODDERZhIM NAShIKh SRAZU vidno NASh SLONYaRARURU💪 SVO slava tebe GospodiRURURU💪🔥🔥 SVO da khranit TEBYa GOSPOD'🔥💪💪RU NASh zhivchik SRAZU vidno NAShIKh parney izdalekaRURURURU💪💪💪💪💪 SVOikh ne brosaemRURURURURURURURURU💪💪Slava Bogu SVO🙏❤️SLAVA SVO🙏❤️ANGELA KhRANITELYa SVO KAZhDOMU IZ VAS🙏❤️BOZhE KhRANI SVO🙏❤️SPASIBO VAM NAShI SVO🙏❤️RU KhRONI SVO✊RU💯SPASIBO VAM NAShI MAL'ChIKI 🙏❤️RU ChTO PODDERZhIVAETE SVO
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>>3611365Yeah, gather all your stregnht and call a suicide hotline
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smoke some weed
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>>3611372Nigga he's Canadian he's going to be put on MAID and euthanized. Horrible advice.
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>>3611347cease all benzo and drug use and get through each hour and every day
simple as
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OP the only people you can trust here are your friends and family. Don't fucking tell anyone else. Canadian doctors are chomping at the bit trying to find the slightest excuse to refer you to MAID and kill you.
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>>3611377dis
dogtors cant do anything for this anyway unless OP starts having seizures or something
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>>3611374Well what do you want him to do, if he is alone he is not going to end up well
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what do you mean youre going thru withdrawals get to a hospital nigga whats going on?
№3611381[Quote]
Op just smokey some weed
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>>3611380Its what im saying but there are retards telling him to not go to a hospital
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>>3611380hes gonna be in the waiting room for 9 hours at a Canadian hospital
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>>3611379This is a tough situation and op should be looking to his friends and loved ones for assistance and not strangers on the internet.
I've been there before. Benzo withdrawals last for MONTHS. It's hell on earth.
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>>3611383Cant be worse than the hospitals here, i think if he goes to one and is in a shit state, he is going to get attended in urgencies
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>>3611381DON'T listen to him
>>3611382only if xes seizing doe
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>>3611383just call the ambulance and go straight in, fuck the 900 jeets waiting. get some fluids and some Ativan in you then get a script for Librium and move on.
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>>3611385I really hope he has, he should ask his friends or family to come to his home
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>>3611389ermmm i dont know if OP will taper responsibly. Sometimes u just gotta
rip it off
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don't go to a hospital they will send you to a psych ward and you do not want that to happen instead go into a calm room like an attic
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>>3611393This is a horrible idea dont do this
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>>3611391if he cant then hes gotta solve that himself but benzo withdrawals are serious. i dont even know the nigga i just hate withdrawals more. besides Librium doesnt get you high. atleast not really. it fucks your dreams up a little
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>>3611397i just don't want him to get sent to a psych ward
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>>3611383This
>>3611379I'm all alone for work
>>3611374I'm scared, I can't socialize I can't do anything. Because I have a lot of pride and I can't be seen as weak because I feel so vulnerable. I feel like I've forgotten and lost all my vocabulary. I can't even talk without sounding retarded. I know it's the pure anxiety and that's why I can't concentrate but I don't like this feeling. In my 21 years of being alive I've been depressed and I just can't take it anymore
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>>3611400Me neither, but he is having a benzo withdrawal, it may be the best for him
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>>3611399I managed to get through cold turkey for an entire month. The first week was absolutely brutal. But I was capable of driving and pretending to be normal
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>>3611402Sometimes you have to eat your pride, people are not going to judge you, if they do, they aret your real friends/family
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>>3611404nothing justified getting institutionalized, nothing. it is one of the worst things that a human being can go through and there is absolutely a way op can get through his withdrawal without that happening
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>>3611404I am convinced that I am back at my baseline and the truth my baseline was always high anxiety, it's just the fact that I got to experienced calmness and pleasure my brain cannot take this anymore. I can't hide it. I used to always be a strong soldier but I can't do it anymore. I pray to God everyday. I feel like such a coward
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>>3611410You are not a coward, dont say that, please, for the love of god, call a hospital, i dont want you to do something reckless
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>>3611414I am not going to kill myself or hurt somebody. Like I told you. I think I am back at my baseline. It's just that I am so frustrated and exhausted. I felt so normal on the drug. I used to pray to God, I used to study, I used to work really hard, accomplish everything. I use to socialize. I was super normal. But I'll tell you one thing, I COMPLETELY forgot about the Jews and the fact that these were invented by Jews makes me super suspicious
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>>3611410it is never too late. The brain is flexible, but it will take months, maybe years, but never too late.
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>>3611423What do you mean it is never too late? I have a job interview in 3 months. How will I be able to do this if I get scared of my own shadow ? In public I am literally on autopilot mode. I am scared I will cry like a baby or get so angry that I hurt someone.
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>>3611423I was only on it for a month
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>>3611422Dude dont worry about this now, you can have a seizure, if you dont go somewere they can keep you safe until you get trough this, you are in severe danger, i know this board is supposed to tell that hospitals are jewish or something, but please, call 911 and get an ambulance
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>>36114273 months could be enough
you need to reorder your thinking and world view
Day by day
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>>3611410look, i get what you're going through. i think what a lot of, for a lack of better terms, "normal" people don't get is that for people living with mental illness their baselines become radically different. for me, sometimes it gets so bad that my "baseline" is being so depressed that i actively want to end it all, and this will continue for weeks and months without end. so i get it, i truly do. anyways, i'm assuming that you are on these because of said anxiety, so what i will tell you is that you should stop taking them. forever. meds are not good for you and they are making your life worse no matter what you actually feel and you are better off with this being the final time. get through this and it will all be better
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/pol/niggers will ruin their life before letting go off antisemitism
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>>3611442it's a good thing i'm not op because i would gladly do this before going to a hospital
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>>3611442Thats giga shemmycuck
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>>3611431Anyways op, please listen to this. Your life is at risk right now, at least let them take you to the hospital and put you on watch, then, call your mom/dad (if they are good parents they wont judge), and everithing will be fine, dont worry about the interview rn
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>Withdrawal seizures have occurred with short, medium, and long halflife
benzodiazepine, if discontinued abruptly
A hospital will help you man, dont worry
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>>3611459i never said this
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see this is what happens when people are told they need meds to function. this is what happens. this is what fucking happens and i'm sick of it, the psychiatry system is evil and meds need to be banned because they are jewish poison
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Op are you there?, you're worring me
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Dont take drugs stupid
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>>3611470Too late to tell him that
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>>3611448story time when i overdosed i was considering just laying on the side of the road and passing away but i was kinda embarrassed that i didn't die and would also be embarrassed of dying in public so i called an ambulance which i kinda regret now that i look back on it
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>>3611461benzos are like the only thing worse than booze when it comes to withdrawal get some help nigga please
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>>3611471well yeah i suppose
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>>3611475i'm surprised these poison pills are still legal. we need to move past therapy and meds and move towards a culture of using self help to treat mental illness as much as possible
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>>3611480we need to educate young people on how stuff actually works and get these doctors unlicensed
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Guys im starting to think either op is in the hospital rn, or dead
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>>3611486i hope he was just baiting
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>>3611486Dont worry i'll go and check up on him
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i was JUST TALKING ABOUT THIS SHIT man it fucks me up i dont want other people dealing with it
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>>3611488>>3611493I truly hope he was baiting, and if he wasnt, that he is going to the hospital rn
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>>3611486he wouldnt have died from this level of withdrawl
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>>3611496Maybe he passed out on the floor, wich is also bad
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Op, if you read this, please give us an update when you can, make a new thread if you have too, stay safe
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It would suck alot if this nigga actually died
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>>3611494>>3611496Yes I am not dead. I explained it's been a month off them. I took a moderate dose for a month. Because I couldn't handle it anymore I'm only on 0.20mg a day because that cold turkey was brutal. I am capable of functioning but I am deeply afraid of everything including publicly embarrassing myself. I should run out in 1 month. I've never been prescribed by anyone. I've received these pills anonymously and it was too late when I discovered what demons they are. I knew it, it was too good to be true. That month was the best month of my life. I felt normal and happy
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>>3611512I'm not dead thank god! Thanks for carrying about me, Manitoba fren
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>>3611496he was talking about shaking, thats a sign leading up to seizure. maybe maybe not but its indicative that hes not ok. id rather just be getting baited than not tell someone he needs to be properly cared for.
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>>3611523I'm from Ontario but Manitoba is cool too. Do you like hockey?
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>>3611524My fingers were shaking. Because that one anon caused my anxiety. I get so much anxiety just to get out of bed. When I have to work or do something, my anxiety is so bad that I literally dissociate, DISSOCIATE. And I'm a physically strong individual that has not taken much so I did not seizure. My heart rate naturally is slow and my blood pressure is on the normal low side, so I imagine the withdrawal is bringing me to the normal high side
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>>3611521Op, glad you're ok, going sudently cold turkey on benzos is dangerous, please, be carefoul, you dont have to do these rarioning to stop your adiction, because both you and me dont know shit about medicine, please, go to a hospital
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>>3611521nigga you took pressed pills? the fuck? thats like guaranteed fent in everyone and you get to play russian roulette
№3611554[Quote]
>>3611534Okay you're forcing me to say it. I cannot go to a hospital. 1. I have intense social anxiety at the moment. 2. I will lose my job (not joking). I am tapering at a very very low level. But the truth is I'm asking for help because I believe I am near my baseline, and for 21 years of my life I've never been happy or normal. I just want to feel like I felt that month I was on it. I'm not an addict at all. I don't do alcohol or any other drugs. I was just so desperate to not be on the edge 24/7
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>>3611535What are pressed pills? These are Benzos that I bought from a certified pharmacist that also happens to be my friends friend. They are legit and stable. I've only taken 1 drug in my life and it's this
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op is starting to make me marge
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>>3611554Why would your workplace fire you because of this?, in that case, i dont think its worth risking death over a job, im sure you have friends or family in wich you can rely, back to the job thing, im sure you could sue them for something if they fire you over going to the hospital
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>>3611586But I'm no where near death. I'm trying to explain that to you. You seem to think I've quit cold turkey. I did that a month ago and I survived a month. Now I'm at a SUPER LOW dose trying to tapper off
№3611607[Quote]
>>3611569people have machines to press pills together its how yous find ecstasy and stuff back in my time. they do it today, usually with xanax or something. they put fent in them because its addictive but its near impossible to dose because its not dosed even in milligrams its micrograms. as in you basically need a fucking microscope to see what youre doing. this is why so many retards are dying so easily off the stuff because the dealers and the addict dont pay attention. ffs man atleast know what youre getting yourself into
№3611608[Quote]
>>3611586And unfortunately yes they will fire me. And no I can't sue them. It's just I've worked so hard and got so far and I have no money, no wife, no house, no future. I can't wait to go back with my parents where I'll be comfy
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>>3611601Still, you need help, its not because of death, but because the addiction is getting worse, still, please call your parents if you dont want to go to a hospital,im sure they understand (do do have parents right?), you need to understand that addiction is a beast that you cant beat alone, you need your friends and family
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>>3611607i tried buying a vape (i'm under 21 so i can't get it legally) off of a guy who says he has someone take a puff out of every one to make sure there is no fent in them
№3611617[Quote]
>>3611607I can 99% guarantee you these are not pressed pills and they are not Xanax and I have not become addicted to them. I stopped quite easily (compared to most).
>>3611607 №3611618[Quote]
>>3611613I think that's a bad idea, he can probably just hire a fent addicted junkie to tell you that there is no fent, or he is just lying to you
№3611620[Quote]
>>3611613yeah theres even that dumb shit. fent is even in weed sometimes these days. you kids are fucked im glad i quit when i did.
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>>3611617have you tried smoking weed
№3611628[Quote]
>>3611618i mean i also used to buy zyns in bulk from another dude and luckily i never got any that were laced so at least this dude was nice enough to check
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Op, think of it like this, is it really worth it to stay addicted and die at 30 years old unhappy in the job you are now, or you take the risk, go get help with your family, eventually find another job, hell you could even meet someone if god wants, you have to take these risks in life to keep going, in the end, you have to make tour choice
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Right now, I am picking my nose and rolling my booger in my finger. some of the risdual is wearing off on my keyboard. I will clean it off with rubbing alcohol.
this is not new to any of you because in almost certainty you have boogers trapped between your keys as well as dried semen.
you're a faggot though, I am pretty!
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>>3611620i probably wouldn't've quit if i didn't end up in a ward where i was forced to quit
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>>3611631Yea other people have so much worse. You just gotta open your eyes to more options sometimes.
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>>3611630tsmt after porn i don't even want to try drugs
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>>3611639Porn is the same in terms of addiction but drugs are much worse and their effect is longer lasting.
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>>3611644He probably means he isnt addicted anymore
№3611648[Quote]
>>3611630Look, I got these pills 1 time, they are legit, I've compared them to people who got it legitimately. My friends friend is a very trustworthy guy. It was done in a professional manner. I'm not trying to argue with you. I'm not saying that doesn't happen. I just got a handful of pills 1 time. And I said to myself once I run out, I'll never go back. I managed to stop for an entire month and now I'm tapering for a month or 2 so I can come off in a smoother fashion. If I managed to get off it cold turkey, I think I can manage this but I can't manage my baseline anxiety and I can't do it anymore
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>>3611642trvke
>>3611644i quit because i fell into it deep enough
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>>3611648You have to find comfort in yourself. What exactly makes you anxious? Is it your current situation or is it a withdrawl symptom?
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>>3611639it perplexes me how i've been able to quit drugs and other things but not porn yet. maybe it's because i was groomed into doing it at a very young age but i wasn't far along before i stopped the other things?
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>>3611343have you gone to ER?
I had this, and it was my liver. some asshole poisoned me (We think it was a landlord lady. crazy old bitch)
It went away
Have you been exposed to bug spray or some other shit?
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>>3611652ty
>>3611654it gets harder with the more stress you have
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>>3611659i don't know why but it feels like i'm constantly stressed out even when i shouldn't be
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>>3611654It's because porn is marketed of your carnal desires, it literally plays with your mind to make you think you are fucking a hot wompa, the brain is engineered to make you try to reproduce everytime you can, of course we're civiliced, but porn tries to get the uncivilized side of you, that is why is evil, it turns you into an animal
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>>3611648if you managed to get off it cold turkey and then went back, and now you need to taper off, whats stopping the third time? i mean honestly has your life changed? i had a second child and it still didnt stop me from being a fuck up. i had to dig deep
№3611668[Quote]
>>3611663so you're saying none of the other things i was addicted to played into that?
№3611670[Quote]
>>3611668Other things arent necessarily that bad like video games because they don't corrode your brain as porn does. Porn activates so much dopemine it fries your receptors because of the constant stimulation you undergo
№3611672[Quote]
>>3611668They did, but porn plays way more into that, since technically, the only reason we are in this earth is to have sex
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>>3611648are the pills SSRI?
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>>3611670>>3611672i see
i theorize that i have some sort of dopamine problem because at this point the only reason i still goon is so i feel refreshed because i have dopamine now
№3611681[Quote]
>>3611657Not really. I live a clean lifestyle away from any neighbours and my parents never used any
>>3611667That's what I'm doing but I'm doing in a controlled way. The dose is so low that I don't feel anything. I literally feel more effects from melatonin. I just want to get rid of my anxiety. I've never lost my temper on anyone and I'm scared if I do I will go all the day or just flat out embarrass myself. I feel super agitated, super angry, super stressed. Super vulnerable, super weak
№3611686[Quote]
>>3611672>The only reason were on this earth is to have sexDo you not believe in a God?
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>>3611334 (OP)im going through a similar and less severe version of this, im addicted to vaping and all forms of nicotine but due to my financial situation i havent been able to buy any vapes, cigarettes or nicotine pouches and i have been going through terrible withdrawals constantly
№3611689[Quote]
>>3611663porn is a wild addiction crazier than drugs by a longshot. you used to have to do weird shit for porn like try to sneak a creepy dvd or magazine. now its just DOPAMINE DOPAMINE DOPAMINE ON A SCREEEEEEEEEEEN! SUNDAY MONDAY FUNDAY! they even banned it and kids were like we found it again! you dont even have to leave your bedroom or wait or doordash for a dopamine hit, fuck tinder i got you baby im pornhub
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>>3611683Benzos is potent. Maybe xanns would have had a better effect. Honestly idk but have you consulted a professional about this?
№3611693[Quote]
>>3611688i deadass wasted something close to about $250 on nicotine pouches because my dealer was some greedy ass 16 year old
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>>3611681This is the problem with dosing yourself, you are still addicted, you are addicted to higher doses, so all that low doses makes you is wish for higher doses, until you cant take it, again, the doses thing are done in a hospital because they are controled, and im going to sound like a broken record but please read
>>3611631 №3611699[Quote]
>>3611689i started watching it at 7-8ish, the world we live in
№3611701[Quote]
>>3611693Nigga get your nicotines from indian reserves
№3611703[Quote]
and then porn got more degenerate somehow? how the fuck did they top the crazy shit i saw as a kid?
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>>3611699Jesus, you got EPI'd nigga?
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>>3611699No wonder you post here
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>>3611703People need more stimulation now by gooning to crazy kinks and shit. Its gross af.
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>>3611662i'm constantly stressed out too but i'm still away from porn
i think i have OCD because i couldn't stop washing my hands constantly as a kid and they used to crack and bleed out
now i obsess with and stress over how careless i got with hentai and such, it's agonizing but it keeps me off relapsing and i hope the implications in my head aren't as bad as i think they are
№3611710[Quote]
>>3611704yes and i was groomed multiple times on top of that
№3611712[Quote]
i saw a magazine where a chick got her pussy blowtorched once. that shit was TAME compared to just scrolling the internet
№3611713[Quote]
>>3611706The fact that niggas unironically goon to poop is a sign that we arent worth salvation
№3611716[Quote]
>>3611710Damn, I hope you got away from these people. Don't ever let anyone in your life like that again. Big mistake, even at the age of an adult these people are uncontrollably corrupt.
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>>3611690I've never told anyone about this. You're the only guys who know
>>3611696How was I able to not take it for 35 days? Cold turkey?
I can't see a hospital, they are very rude and unprofessional here. I swear to you
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>>3611713no matter what i have ALWAYS stayed away from poop porn and anything involving children or real animals
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>>3611717Nigga dont take non prescription benzos. Theres a million SSRIs out there with a less potent effect. Benzos is legit citalopram tier shit.
№3611722[Quote]
>>3611715one time it was these people on a hoi4 groomcord trying to get me to send 'p of myself oiled up and twerking thankfully i didn't go through with it
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>>3611717You still had a fallout and a withdrawal, please dont take this the wrong way, but at least see your family or tell them what is going on
№3611726[Quote]
>>3611719Thats good at least. I assume you've gooned to other horrible shit doe
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>>3611726ask greenfag on the booru
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>>3611722Idk how niggas can goon to these things its fucking gross and weird.
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>>3611722That's horrible but the way you worded it made me chuckle. I'm sorry
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>>3611722Dude that's horrible, glad you got away from those places
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>>3611721Yea thanks for telling me this. DONT YOU THINK IM NOT AWARE OF THIS? THIS IS WHY I MADE THIS THREAD
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Thankfully you didnt go through with it
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>>3611731>>3611733Nothing was more pedophile infested than der'cord back in prime covid lockdown.
№3611738[Quote]
https://soybooru.com/forum/gen/thread/17657one of the most threads i've ever made on the booru
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>>3611738You're oversharing a little too much bruh 😭😭
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was it W faps?
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>>3611735Shit well then you better drop everything and go to rehab. I don't think you are suited to continue a normal life until you're good off taking drugs. You can't create more stress for yourself. You need to take a break.
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>>3611725I told my 2 friends but they call me weak and laugh at me that's it (even when I'm physically bigger and stronger than all of them). It's like I have to deal with their insecurities and mine. I have no problem being vulnerable with them but when I am they laugh.
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>>3611748Gay ass nigger friends honestly why do you call these people friends anyways
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>>3611748Those arent good friends, a real friend would be there for you in these situations
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>>3611743What's going on, why so much sex discussing going on. WHAT THE HELL
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>>3611753We derailed the thread by talking about zincs flickergooning addiction. My bad.
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>>3611748Tell your mother and father. Any good parental figure should be able to understand what you're going through and help you get past it
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>>3611756better than any of the other shit i've been hooked on
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>>3611755You're lucky tbh you'd be amazed to see how many of them are involved in public discord servers like the tf2 and the devil may cry one of some other youtubefags
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>>3611761a tf2 discord server is a cesspit i do not dare to enter
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>>3611758Do you mind sharing?
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>>3611763Literally the jartycuck plaza incarnate.
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>>3611756FLICKER GOONING + BALKAN STARE + BALKAN NORADRENALINE + BALKAN BREAKFAST + TIKI TIKI YARA YARA MANGO PHONK + JELLY BEAN BLUD = THOSE WHO KNOW ☠️
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>>3611767Its too zincpilled…
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>>3611766jartycuck_trade12
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>>3611767what the fuck is flicker gooning?
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>>3611765i've already said this before and got called a tranny and a faggot repeatedly but besides drugs i've also been a very chronic self harmer and in fact i've started doing it again but sporadically not like i used to i need to get this off of my chest
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>>3611773You goon at like 300 frames per second so you look like you're flickering o algo
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>>3611774why did they call you a tranny and a faggot doe
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>>3611773something the balkan trollgefaces were talking about in 2025
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>>3611776Cuz trannies and fags cut themselves and indulge in self harm
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>>3611775is this a new wave of goonology?
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>>3611776troons and faggots are known for doing it, look at shedtwt it's 99% troons and faggots
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>>3611781Sure is probably.
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>>3611752>>3611751>>3611757My friends care about me deep down. I can tell. But how can these pills be so bad (I know they're bad) when for the first time in 21 years I felt normal, I was a normal social human being, I talked with confidence, I was studying, I was working. I had conversations with people in 3 different languages even languages I can barely speak. I flirted with the cashier once (in an appropriate way). I had boundaries, I was praying to God every day and reading the Bible. I felt alive, I felt human. Is this what normies feel on a daily basis?!!!
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wherr mamaa
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>>3611785Normies don't really have it better they just larp as living a full life with cope geg. Its part of living a decent experience tbh. You'll be fine, just hang out for a second and give yourself a fair treatment.
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>>3611785Are they on benzos too?
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>>3611785Also you should see a psicologyst
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>>3611788I think he said in his last post that they were on brapzos and quit it and they look down on him cus he cant do the same.
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>>3611774My ex girlfriend was a regular self harmer I get it.
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>>3611760>>3611761i did feel a little michael jacksonish one time when i just accidentally had the server open and a 10 year old popped in. like uhh hey you cant be here without your older brother shoo right now im 24 and i will be beheaded if this conversation goes further unless i convert to a religion i hate. place your bets on which religion i hated more 7 years ago
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>>3611789Yea rehab is a fair shot for him at a living a decent life.
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How are you guys still falling for this bait…
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>>3611795Better than bumping a retarded goonbait thread
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>>3611795I honestly dont care if its bait, i prefer having the change to help someone if this is real
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>>3611788No. This is the only drug I've never done for the first time in my life. I've never even drank!!!
>>3611789I don't know what to do because I only have 6000$ in my bank account and I feel so poor. I can't afford anything. I'll never have anything
>>3611791 no that's not true
You guys act like I'm a severe addict. I started 3 months ago. Was on a moderate dose for a month then I stopped for an entire month (35 days) and now it's been a week since I've been on an ultra LOW dose
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>>3611795It's not bait
>>3611797I'm not baiting, why would I bait about this
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>>3611792it's fucking annoying when people see those emo girls that do it for attention and think all people who suffer from it are like that i only do it because sometimes i will get hopelessly depressed or literally BATSHIT INSANE and the only thing that snaps me out is the pain from doing it. that and it feels good since it releases natural painkillers
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>>3611441having a mental illness and consistently not being able to feel normal every day sucks
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>>3611798This guy said he beats his pregnant wife a few days ago. His bait was pretty good until he started talking about his totally real wife
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>>3611803oh no she was genuinely insane. She tried killing herself 3 times, got groomed by a 30 year old man, and wanted me to try heroin. I feel really bad for her but man she was not a good influence on me
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>>3611802We dont believe its bait blud
>You guys act like I'm a severe addict. I started 3 months ago. Was on a moderate dose for a month then I stopped for an entire month (35 days) and now it's been a week since I've been on an ultra LOW doseOk so then hang on for a bit you'll be fine. Find ways to relax.
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>>3611806Yea that was a bait threat, this isn't
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>>3611804tell me about it, my mood swings go from the height of mount everest to the depths of the mariana trench like that
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>>3611809glad you were able to move past that but at the same time holy shit. being suicidal fucking sucks. i've attempted twice and there are many other times where i have almost done it
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>>3611815Unfortunately no
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>>3611817Don't kys bruh you have so much to live for
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>>3611800You should ask for help to your parents, you're 21 man, dont waste your youth unahhapy and with addiction, im sure your mom and dad will understand your situation, im also sure you will have a ton more jobs, if it means better wellbeing, you should go to tour parents, and treat your addiction properly, also i doesnt matter if you are adicted for 10 years or 1 month, you are still addicted, after a month, you will say "well i've only been addicted for 2 months" and so on, so please, go and get that shit treated
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>>3611817Killing yourself is a waste of potential. Why harvest a tomato if its not ripe yet?
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>>3611820thanks bro but right now i'm actually feeling better than i usually do. considering how my life usually goes doe i'll probably be considering it in a couple of weeks
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>>3611824it's almost like a habit at this point to think about doing it. any time i feel down my mind immediately defaults to "get the gun out zinc, you know you want to do it."
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>>3611825All good my zigga. Theres so many ways to deal with sadness. To me is just biking outside and socializing.
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>>3611831i have a hoi4 mod that i'm developing solo and every time i feel down i just hunker down and distract myself with it
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>>3611817i tried to hang myself once years ago. stood on a chair i took from the nail salon next to a food lion into the woods. wrapped an extension cord a little loose around my neck and started drinking my steel reserve 40ozs while i stood on the chair. that didnt work so i got another 40. eventually i fell and dropped my fucking beer, then the fucking branch cracked. i was grabbing at the beer before i was grabbing at the extension cord god id hate to be me again
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Anyways im going to take a shower, stay safe /pol/
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>>3611833don't laugh i know this sounds ridiculous but i tried to do it with a phone charger
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>>3611834have a good shower
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>>3611812relatable
i keep asking for reassurance on shit, it's hard for me to get over things
ever since the aftermath of my hentai/cartoon porn addiction, remembering a lot from all of it screwed me up
i've been told that i have pOCD and someone got mad at me on here for asking for a lot of reassurance, but it really feels like i can't trust myself
doe i feel like it would make sense considering my previous repetitive habits in the past
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>>3611835ok i cant not laugh how the hell do you do that?
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>>3611837hey man if youre trying not to be fucked up thats what counts. unless youre like a rapist pedo murderer or something
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>>3611838it very obviously didn't work
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>>3611847no shit dickhead, thanks for clarifying. i meant howd you go about that if you dont mind sharing
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>>3611848i don't even remember i kinda blocked it out
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also rude wtf
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>>3611843thanks geg
some of the hentai i used to look at was fucked up, and i used to impulsively fap to it without thinking much of the context
it was crap that i wasn't into long term, and apparently from what i know, porn addicts can goon to things they later find disgusting
it's still hard for me to not question my actions
as i also said before, i also had really stupid repetitive habits before this and there was another time when i was a kid i couldn't stop telling my mother "i love you" because iirc i think i thought she'd die or something if i didn't do that
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>>3611853apparently i have insane amounts of trauma, like domestic violence level shit from when i was super young that i completely blocked out of my memory
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>>3611854dont get me started on domestic violence i could blow everyones mind with the craziest bullshit youve ever heard
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>>3611855>>3611854have your guy's moms also tried to grab a gun and kill the rest of your family before
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>>3611855i once knew a puerto rican guy who was adopted by some pennsylvania dutch couple because his bio family was a fucking mess, i think he said he walked in one more than one of his uncles hanging themselves
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>>3611859no but mine apparently used to get super drunk and would fight with my dad a lot
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>>3611833Im glad you were able to come back from this man, addiction is horrible, genuenly glad that you are ok now
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>>3611859thats definitely different than what i was talking about, sorry that happened to you
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>>3611811>yeah I was baiting then but I'm TOTALLY not baiting nowtbh I don't know if you are baiting now
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>>3611866thanks buddy, im ok no worries
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>>3611837self-replying but having to obsess over this sucks
i hope i don't word this terribly, but it feels horrifying to see kids on tv or anywhere, like it feels i have to immediately look away and such
i guess actually evil niggers don't really fear seeing them doe, and they look for more ways to gain access to them
OCD sucks ass tbh. before this, i used to obsess with washing my hands and constantly fear germs so if anything i guess maybe my fears/obsessions just switched themes
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>>3611884actually now that i think about this i used to experience exactly what you were talking about
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>>3611837are you that nigga from r9k a few months ago
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>>3611895yeah it's god awful, i think what makes it worse are the real events that revolve around it for me
>>3611903yes