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>>3611795It's not bait
>>3611797I'm not baiting, why would I bait about this
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>>3611792it's fucking annoying when people see those emo girls that do it for attention and think all people who suffer from it are like that i only do it because sometimes i will get hopelessly depressed or literally BATSHIT INSANE and the only thing that snaps me out is the pain from doing it. that and it feels good since it releases natural painkillers
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>>3611441having a mental illness and consistently not being able to feel normal every day sucks
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>>3611798This guy said he beats his pregnant wife a few days ago. His bait was pretty good until he started talking about his totally real wife
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>>3611803oh no she was genuinely insane. She tried killing herself 3 times, got groomed by a 30 year old man, and wanted me to try heroin. I feel really bad for her but man she was not a good influence on me
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>>3611802We dont believe its bait blud
>You guys act like I'm a severe addict. I started 3 months ago. Was on a moderate dose for a month then I stopped for an entire month (35 days) and now it's been a week since I've been on an ultra LOW doseOk so then hang on for a bit you'll be fine. Find ways to relax.
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>>3611806Yea that was a bait threat, this isn't
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>>3611804tell me about it, my mood swings go from the height of mount everest to the depths of the mariana trench like that
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>>3611809glad you were able to move past that but at the same time holy shit. being suicidal fucking sucks. i've attempted twice and there are many other times where i have almost done it
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>>3611815Unfortunately no
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>>3611817Don't kys bruh you have so much to live for
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>>3611800You should ask for help to your parents, you're 21 man, dont waste your youth unahhapy and with addiction, im sure your mom and dad will understand your situation, im also sure you will have a ton more jobs, if it means better wellbeing, you should go to tour parents, and treat your addiction properly, also i doesnt matter if you are adicted for 10 years or 1 month, you are still addicted, after a month, you will say "well i've only been addicted for 2 months" and so on, so please, go and get that shit treated
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>>3611817Killing yourself is a waste of potential. Why harvest a tomato if its not ripe yet?
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>>3611820thanks bro but right now i'm actually feeling better than i usually do. considering how my life usually goes doe i'll probably be considering it in a couple of weeks
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>>3611824it's almost like a habit at this point to think about doing it. any time i feel down my mind immediately defaults to "get the gun out zinc, you know you want to do it."
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>>3611825All good my zigga. Theres so many ways to deal with sadness. To me is just biking outside and socializing.
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>>3611831i have a hoi4 mod that i'm developing solo and every time i feel down i just hunker down and distract myself with it
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>>3611817i tried to hang myself once years ago. stood on a chair i took from the nail salon next to a food lion into the woods. wrapped an extension cord a little loose around my neck and started drinking my steel reserve 40ozs while i stood on the chair. that didnt work so i got another 40. eventually i fell and dropped my fucking beer, then the fucking branch cracked. i was grabbing at the beer before i was grabbing at the extension cord god id hate to be me again
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Anyways im going to take a shower, stay safe /pol/
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>>3611833don't laugh i know this sounds ridiculous but i tried to do it with a phone charger
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>>3611834have a good shower
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>>3611812relatable
i keep asking for reassurance on shit, it's hard for me to get over things
ever since the aftermath of my hentai/cartoon porn addiction, remembering a lot from all of it screwed me up
i've been told that i have pOCD and someone got mad at me on here for asking for a lot of reassurance, but it really feels like i can't trust myself
doe i feel like it would make sense considering my previous repetitive habits in the past
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>>3611835ok i cant not laugh how the hell do you do that?
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>>3611837hey man if youre trying not to be fucked up thats what counts. unless youre like a rapist pedo murderer or something
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>>3611838it very obviously didn't work
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>>3611847no shit dickhead, thanks for clarifying. i meant howd you go about that if you dont mind sharing
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>>3611848i don't even remember i kinda blocked it out
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also rude wtf
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>>3611843thanks geg
some of the hentai i used to look at was fucked up, and i used to impulsively fap to it without thinking much of the context
it was crap that i wasn't into long term, and apparently from what i know, porn addicts can goon to things they later find disgusting
it's still hard for me to not question my actions
as i also said before, i also had really stupid repetitive habits before this and there was another time when i was a kid i couldn't stop telling my mother "i love you" because iirc i think i thought she'd die or something if i didn't do that
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>>3611853apparently i have insane amounts of trauma, like domestic violence level shit from when i was super young that i completely blocked out of my memory
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>>3611854dont get me started on domestic violence i could blow everyones mind with the craziest bullshit youve ever heard
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>>3611855>>3611854have your guy's moms also tried to grab a gun and kill the rest of your family before
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>>3611855i once knew a puerto rican guy who was adopted by some pennsylvania dutch couple because his bio family was a fucking mess, i think he said he walked in one more than one of his uncles hanging themselves
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>>3611859no but mine apparently used to get super drunk and would fight with my dad a lot
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>>3611833Im glad you were able to come back from this man, addiction is horrible, genuenly glad that you are ok now
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>>3611859thats definitely different than what i was talking about, sorry that happened to you
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>>3611811>yeah I was baiting then but I'm TOTALLY not baiting nowtbh I don't know if you are baiting now
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>>3611866thanks buddy, im ok no worries
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>>3611837self-replying but having to obsess over this sucks
i hope i don't word this terribly, but it feels horrifying to see kids on tv or anywhere, like it feels i have to immediately look away and such
i guess actually evil niggers don't really fear seeing them doe, and they look for more ways to gain access to them
OCD sucks ass tbh. before this, i used to obsess with washing my hands and constantly fear germs so if anything i guess maybe my fears/obsessions just switched themes
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>>3611884actually now that i think about this i used to experience exactly what you were talking about
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>>3611837are you that nigga from r9k a few months ago
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>>3611895yeah it's god awful, i think what makes it worse are the real events that revolve around it for me
>>3611903yes