>>3156198the road to hell is paved with good intentions, you shouldn't seek martyrdom, but rather fight for God to the point of martyrdom.
You should learn from a monk in a monastery in Sakartvelo before you have amerimutt reformation tendencies, you don't want to die for the wrong church after all.
You should strive ultimately for his Love through humility of yourself.
>Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.