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i pooped like 4 times today but really it was just out of boredom. like i knew i needed to get out of bed but i didnt know what else to do so i sat on the toilet instead of laying down fuck i was lazy today
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>>2705214Jesus Christ you can just poop on command?
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Every 20 minutes
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>>2705218nah i was sitting there for like a good 15-20 minutes each time watching youtube and posting here geg. seriously this was the most unproductive day ive had in months
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>>2705233Don't you have kids? Or is that some other guy
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2-3 times, I don't eat a lot
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>>2705234i do but im currently in a rehab/halfway house because i fucked up pretty bad a few months ago and i really couldnt trust myself to just go home and pretend nothing happened.
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>>2705239I'm so sorry to hear that man I pray for you
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>>2705241well thanks bud but im cool with it, forreal its probably the best thing that couldve ever happened all things considered. my other options were way fuckin worse lol. right now i got a stable environment, a decent job, sober friends for the first time in almost 20 years, and plenty of time to work out. which when i say it like that it just sounds like prison i guess but I've never been there so idk
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>>2705244God bless man my dad was an alcoholic and I know it's not hard to quit. I know you'll beat this :)
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shittiest part is making friends and then they fuck up and get kicked out and you find them in town later back to their same old habits.
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>>2705248it hasnt been hard for me so far but im not even 90 days clean yet. idk my mentality is on a whole different wavelength than everyone elses in all of these programs though i know that 100%.
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>>2705258its not something to beat, its just a piece of training gear like weights or a punching bag but for my brain
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POOP AND NIGGERS DYING
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>>2705264idk man like i said im not really on the same wavelength as other people when it comes to this recovery bullshit. im never not gunna be an alcoholic but i can kinda compartmentalize my alcoholism into something that fuels my natural drive to be a better person. ive never been a fuckin slouch and thats why my last bender broke me because i was 100% willing to just drink until i died. i hate that nigga that i was. i dont even like the nigga i am now, hes a dick too but atleast hes someone i want to compete with.
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>>2705281Interesting way too look at life
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>>2705281this is the type of shit that comes out at every aa/na meeting and i get kinda ghetto im sorry
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And addiction
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>>2705287i gotta be real i kinda want to become a counselor because i think i can help people who probably dont get it for the same reasons i dont, or atleast didnt.
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i had one guy who just straight up said "fuck the 12 steps i was thrown in a sweat lodge" and honestly im at the same level except idk shit about a sweat lodge or spirituality. why cant i be my own higher power? hell isnt that just buddhism without the meditation stuff that i probably do anyway without thinking about it?
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>>2705290Maybe you should do it if you really think you could help these people
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>>2705299i want to atleast try
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>>2705306You should once you know you can commit to it
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>>2705310i know i could but its not a big priority yet
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>>2705244>>2705239you're a fakecel but good for you, I didn't ask that girl out at church since I would have been putting her on the spot in front of 15 people. I'll do it next week when there is a regular service.