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I watched the christchurch video. Not gonna say how I found it, dont even ask.
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I've always had a bit of a morbid fascination. Naturally this led to me researching these horrible mass killings - its intriguing, frightening, I thought. I'm sure many of you had this experience- the slippery slope of reading about sandy hook, parkland, columbine, etc.
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I thought I could handle it. In a fucked up way I was excited to watch Tarrant's livestream when I found it. But my god.
My god, it was disturbing. The "hello brother" the pewdiepie, the screams as tarrant picked them off one by one, running into the mosque and firing so indescriminately at these innocent people for no reason, no reason at all, the woman he shot outside who kept crying for help like a broken record until he executed her on the street like she was nothing…
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Tarrant was so cruel, and so banal. He fired his assault rifle into the horde of innocents as they clutched the walls, like they were animals. They fell like broken dolls. And even then he continued to fire into their bodies as they groaned in agony.
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He killed 44 people at the Al Noor mosque. And there I was, watching on my laptop like it was a tv show. 44 lives - fathers mothers and brothers, cruelly bludgeoned, torn and lacerated by the cruel steel of a pathetic 4chan loser who was so utterly low and loathsome that he convinced himself that these people were at fault for his miserable recluse existence.
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The cowardice. The cruelty. The utter shame of the fact that Tarrant had made me complicit in his vile bloodlust - since I had sought out this video like so many others - some of whom CHEER FOR HIS CRIME.
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Truly, I felt ashamed of myself. Of my fascination with these horrible tragedies. The fact that these people lived and worked and prayed, and died horrifically and cruelly and tragically FOR NO REASON.
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And there I was, watching it all unfold just to fulfill a morbid urge - an animalistic desire to see real bloodshed.
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I dont desire to proselytize or tell you guys what to do or what is or isn't okay to watch. I'm just sharing my experience.
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And to tell you the truth I'm ashamed.
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How can I justify this fascination? I'm not a murderer, and I deplore all of them - but by consuming that horrid piece of media, I felt that the pathetic piece of human scum that is Tarrant had won something on me.
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In a way, I felt like I gave him what he wanted. Recognition. Attention. Even notoriety.
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Do any of you have any advice on how to cope with this? How do you all reckon with your mass killer fascination?
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@grok summarize this yap
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>I watched the christchurch video. Not gonna say how I found it, dont even ask.
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>I've always had a bit of a morbid fascination. Naturally this led to me researching these horrible mass killings - its intriguing, frightening, I thought. I'm sure many of you had this experience- the slippery slope of reading about sandy hook, parkland, columbine, etc.
><
>I thought I could handle it. In a fucked up way I was excited to watch Tarrant's livestream when I found it. But my god.
>
>My god, it was disturbing. The "hello brother" the pewdiepie, the screams as tarrant picked them off one by one, running into the mosque and firing so indescriminately at these innocent people for no reason, no reason at all, the woman he shot outside who kept crying for help like a broken record until he executed her on the street like she was nothing…
><
>Tarrant was so cruel, and so banal. He fired his assault rifle into the horde of innocents as they clutched the walls, like they were animals. They fell like broken dolls. And even then he continued to fire into their bodies as they groaned in agony.
><
>He killed 44 people at the Al Noor mosque. And there I was, watching on my laptop like it was a tv show. 44 lives - fathers mothers and brothers, cruelly bludgeoned, torn and lacerated by the cruel steel of a pathetic 4chan loser who was so utterly low and loathsome that he convinced himself that these people were at fault for his miserable recluse existence.
><
>The cowardice. The cruelty. The utter shame of the fact that Tarrant had made me complicit in his vile bloodlust - since I had sought out this video like so many others - some of whom CHEER FOR HIS CRIME.
><
>Truly, I felt ashamed of myself. Of my fascination with these horrible tragedies. The fact that these people lived and worked and prayed, and died horrifically and cruelly and tragically FOR NO REASON.
><
>And there I was, watching it all unfold just to fulfill a morbid urge - an animalistic desire to see real bloodshed.
><
>I dont desire to proselytize or tell you guys what to do or what is or isn't okay to watch. I'm just sharing my experience.
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>And to tell you the truth I'm ashamed.
><
>How can I justify this fascination? I'm not a murderer, and I deplore all of them - but by consuming that horrid piece of media, I felt that the pathetic piece of human scum that is Tarrant had won something on me.
><
>In a way, I felt like I gave him what he wanted. Recognition. Attention. Even notoriety.
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>Do any of you have any advice on how to cope with this? How do you all reckon with your mass killer fascination?
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>>I watched the christchurch video. Not gonna say how I found it, dont even ask.
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>>I've always had a bit of a morbid fascination. Naturally this led to me researching these horrible mass killings - its intriguing, frightening, I thought. I'm sure many of you had this experience- the slippery slope of reading about sandy hook, parkland, columbine, etc.
>><
>>I thought I could handle it. In a fucked up way I was excited to watch Tarrant's livestream when I found it. But my god.
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>>My god, it was disturbing. The "hello brother" the pewdiepie, the screams as tarrant picked them off one by one, running into the mosque and firing so indescriminately at these innocent people for no reason, no reason at all, the woman he shot outside who kept crying for help like a broken record until he executed her on the street like she was nothing…
>><
>>Tarrant was so cruel, and so banal. He fired his assault rifle into the horde of innocents as they clutched the walls, like they were animals. They fell like broken dolls. And even then he continued to fire into their bodies as they groaned in agony.
>><
>>He killed 44 people at the Al Noor mosque. And there I was, watching on my laptop like it was a tv show. 44 lives - fathers mothers and brothers, cruelly bludgeoned, torn and lacerated by the cruel steel of a pathetic 4chan loser who was so utterly low and loathsome that he convinced himself that these people were at fault for his miserable recluse existence.
>><
>>The cowardice. The cruelty. The utter shame of the fact that Tarrant had made me complicit in his vile bloodlust - since I had sought out this video like so many others - some of whom CHEER FOR HIS CRIME.
>><
>>Truly, I felt ashamed of myself. Of my fascination with these horrible tragedies. The fact that these people lived and worked and prayed, and died horrifically and cruelly and tragically FOR NO REASON.
>><
>>And there I was, watching it all unfold just to fulfill a morbid urge - an animalistic desire to see real bloodshed.
>><
>>I dont desire to proselytize or tell you guys what to do or what is or isn't okay to watch. I'm just sharing my experience.
>><
>>And to tell you the truth I'm ashamed.
>><
>>How can I justify this fascination? I'm not a murderer, and I deplore all of them - but by consuming that horrid piece of media, I felt that the pathetic piece of human scum that is Tarrant had won something on me.
>><
>>In a way, I felt like I gave him what he wanted. Recognition. Attention. Even notoriety.
>><
>>Do any of you have any advice on how to cope with this? How do you all reckon with your mass killer fascination?
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>>2608360 (OP)>I watched the christchurch video. Not gonna say how I found it, dont even ask.nusoiniggers acting like they found some 'p lost media
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troonslop essay snca
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>nooo the mass shooting video wasnt a le wholesome reddit chungus moment im gonna whine about it in der shardee
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>>2608373This is a 2021 Reddit post from r/masskillers (a subreddit discussing true crime and mass shootings) where the OP describes their experience watching the livestream footage of the 2019 Christchurch mosque attacks by Brenton Tarrant.
Summary:
The poster admits to a long-standing morbid curiosity about mass killings (starting with cases like Columbine, Sandy Hook, and Parkland), which escalated to seeking out and watching Tarrant's graphic livestream video. They were initially "excited" in a twisted way but found it profoundly disturbing-detailing specific horrific moments like the "hello brother" greeting, the PewDiePie reference, indiscriminate shooting of innocents, screams, and the execution of a pleading woman outside.
They express deep shame and regret for viewing it, feeling complicit in giving the attacker the attention and notoriety he sought, while fulfilling their own "animalistic" urge for real violence. The OP emphasizes the senseless cruelty, the victims' humanity (44 killed at Al Noor Mosque alone), and questions how to justify or cope with this fascination, asking others in the community for advice on reckoning with it. They clarify they're not proselytizing, just sharing their emotional turmoil.
(Note: The post is often referenced or mocked in edgier online spaces as overly dramatic or "nusoi"-slang from sites like Soyjak.party for something seen as cringey, emotional, or newcomer-like.)
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>>>I watched the christchurch video. Not gonna say how I found it, dont even ask.
>>><
>>>I've always had a bit of a morbid fascination. Naturally this led to me researching these horrible mass killings - its intriguing, frightening, I thought. I'm sure many of you had this experience- the slippery slope of reading about sandy hook, parkland, columbine, etc.
>>><
>>>I thought I could handle it. In a fucked up way I was excited to watch Tarrant's livestream when I found it. But my god.
>>>
>>>My god, it was disturbing. The "hello brother" the pewdiepie, the screams as tarrant picked them off one by one, running into the mosque and firing so indescriminately at these innocent people for no reason, no reason at all, the woman he shot outside who kept crying for help like a broken record until he executed her on the street like she was nothing…
>>><
>>>Tarrant was so cruel, and so banal. He fired his assault rifle into the horde of innocents as they clutched the walls, like they were animals. They fell like broken dolls. And even then he continued to fire into their bodies as they groaned in agony.
>>><
>>>He killed 44 people at the Al Noor mosque. And there I was, watching on my laptop like it was a tv show. 44 lives - fathers mothers and brothers, cruelly bludgeoned, torn and lacerated by the cruel steel of a pathetic 4chan loser who was so utterly low and loathsome that he convinced himself that these people were at fault for his miserable recluse existence.
>>><
>>>The cowardice. The cruelty. The utter shame of the fact that Tarrant had made me complicit in his vile bloodlust - since I had sought out this video like so many others - some of whom CHEER FOR HIS CRIME.
>>><
>>>Truly, I felt ashamed of myself. Of my fascination with these horrible tragedies. The fact that these people lived and worked and prayed, and died horrifically and cruelly and tragically FOR NO REASON.
>>><
>>>And there I was, watching it all unfold just to fulfill a morbid urge - an animalistic desire to see real bloodshed.
>>><
>>>I dont desire to proselytize or tell you guys what to do or what is or isn't okay to watch. I'm just sharing my experience.
>>><
>>>And to tell you the truth I'm ashamed.
>>><
>>>How can I justify this fascination? I'm not a murderer, and I deplore all of them - but by consuming that horrid piece of media, I felt that the pathetic piece of human scum that is Tarrant had won something on me.
>>><
>>>In a way, I felt like I gave him what he wanted. Recognition. Attention. Even notoriety.
>>><
>>>Do any of you have any advice on how to cope with this? How do you all reckon with your mass killer fascination?
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Cringe.
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>>2608390put this in r/cringe
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>>2608400McKillYourself pajeet
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>>2608400live yourself fat brown pooner
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>>2608360 (OP)Nusoipoopaloopa finally watched the 6 million year old video
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>>2608392unironically it became troonslop
his image became something for seamonkey shitskins to fling at eachother in Tiktok comment sections to be edgy. And that's pretty much all he's remembered for other than for a couple of chuds that actually took his writings to heart. I dont think the far-right has any chance of winning at the moment, unfortunately. Well, killing literal whos isnt going to help, thats for sure. People actually praised Luigi mangione when he actually targeted some kike instead of killing random literal whos. I wonder how that'd play out if a chud tried that instead.
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>>2608726real asf. couldnt agree more
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Nusoi