>>4068578 (OP)My life was wasted at 13 when I made the pivotal decision to not try to correct my profound unathleticism by working through my fear of peer judgement and then again at 15 when I didn't try to kick the shit out of the kid who was consistently being a dickhead to me before he ended up dropping out of school the following year and then again at 17/18 when I barely studied for any of my exams because I felt life was hopeless and all I wanted to do was fight and die in the coming race war (2 more weeks) as an Earl Turner ass guerilla nigga because banal white collar life seemed worse than death to me.