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>>3931523 (OP)Klonopin is a fucking nightmare. If you start taking it again you'll never be a normal person. Stop being a bussy and convince yourself anxiety is in your head.
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>>3931523 (OP)Canadaschizo are you there
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>>3931530Wdym again?
I was thinking of taking it once a month whenever the anxiety gets extreme. I'm staying indoors until I return close to baseline. I'm starting to workout and living a healthy life. I'm slowly gaining my confidence and slowly starting to feel better. I'm living through this nightmare and I'm so scared. I've been taking all the calming supplements and they seem to work. I don't know how I would respond if I had to do something or if something bad were to happen to me or a family member
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>>3931563I would like to call you like that
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>>3931562That's a really bad idea, brother. The problem with Klonopin addiction is that it is psychologically ingrained. The second you use it again it'll start the whole withdrawal and addiction cycle over again. You've put good time behind you, you've done a good job. Keep trudging forward, it will get easier. It can ONLY get easier from what you've been through.
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Or however the benzos are consooomed?
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Wait nigger you left benzos to consume another drug?
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>>3931523 (OP)now you know what demon torment means when you try to resist their urges.
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you took a neurotoxin that stopped the anxiety chemical and your nerves got used to having no anxiety chemical and now a little bit is enough to feel super shitty. all psych meds are neurotoxins to kill some part of your brain, not a single one of them makes you feel the slightest bit better or it's classed as a "narcotic". it can take 3-6 months to even begin feeling normal, but your nerves recover to baseline over time
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>>3931572You're right but I feel so much physical pain and even tho I didn't lose much muscle mass I'm not that coordinated and my muscles feel so weak. My back is so stiff, I internally shake which put makes me feel super embarrassed even if no one notices anything. I keep thinking of a billion scenarios. Right now everything is going well, I try not to sin, my parents, my family and everyone I know is doing well and safe but I can only imagine how I would respond if something bad were to happen, would I start shaking? Crying? Raging? I dropped a single drop of milk on the floor and I started having a panic attack. I need to get back to baseline. Please be honest with me. What do you think will happen? Do you believe in God? I can barely think, I can barely talk, my brain is super fogged
>>3931569Sure
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>>3931575Klonopin are Benzos. It's been 5.5 weeks since I stopped
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>>3931577Yes but estimates another 2-4 months until I return to baseline
>>3931576Yes, I'm a terrible sinner and I regret all the bad stuff that I have done. I can't take this feeling anymore, the restlessness, the anxiety, the fear of death. It's too much. The demons are tormenting me and I try and pray 3 times a day but it's hard. I'm tempted to doing bad things because of how frustrated and angry and anxious I am
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>>3931572Taking it once won't restart the process because your brain has to get used to it but you're absolutely right. I'm so scared of my parents/ family members dying. I'm scared I will get punished. I am scared of everyone and everything. I feel like I'm 5 years old. I'm so sorry I sound like a pussy. I feel like an extreme loser in real life because I'm big and muscular
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>>3931579I'm not redditsoying here: if you feel this terrible you're in dangerous withdrawal and it looks like you're going psychotic. you need to get into a rehab center ASAP. I looked it up and Canada has 988 too, if you call that number they should be able to get someone to come out and drive you to a rehab center or hospital that will sort you to a rehab center.
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>>3931584don't pray to anyone or anything. ignore it all. I assure you every single thing you are in contact with right now is a demon and they are swarming you with a million masks of whatever they think you worship. you need to get to rehab so they can chemically shut this shit down before your brain short circuits.
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>>3931588I think it's mostly in my head because I am still able to work (I'm stopping in a week) and I can drive and still do basic stuff. Because of my ego, in public I am capable of looking composed. And I can't go to rehab or anything because my parents don't know what I am going through. They know nothing about it. So they will wonder and worry. My Dad is a chill guy but him too gets anxious however when he gets anxious he starts getting mad which is scary to me
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>>3931579Yeah bro, of course I believe in God. Look, you've made it 5 weeks, right? You've made it through the worst, and if this is the worst of it you've made it this far. You've done well. So whatever strength you've found to get you this far is enough to take you even further.
The beginning of the end of this starts with you convincing yourself to actually try to calm down. You're getting yourself worked up, trying to justify relapse. If you took Klonapin right now you'd feel alright for a couple hours, and all this would come right back, but the difference is it would be so much worse in the following hours, all over again.
Your peace is within you but it takes work to find it. Ask the Lord with an open heart to help you find strength and ask what He would have of you.
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>>3931584You're not as terrible as demons who rebelled in full knowledge, you're just being tested in your vulnerability.
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>>3931584come to my happy thread after 10 minutes of breathing exercise
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>>3931593I'm going to get totally serious here. Stop. Take 3 deep breaths. Everyone in psychosis either thinks they're fine or thinks they can handle it. They can't. I couldn't, and I nearly died from it.
Take another breath.
GABA withdrawal is deadly. You could actually be dying right now. You flat out need detox rehab right now and nobody in your life's reaction to that is going to compare to their reactions if you flat out fucking die. Get off your computer and call 988 immediately.
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>>3931523 (OP)Tell me about every sensation you feel, describe every single thing that bothered you, when you should have been alone and unbothered.
You must write there memories down. Before you forget them in a sleep deprived mind, which is what is being taken advantage of, what are they making you think…
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>>3931617You don't need encouragement or stupid fucking jokes. You're in deadly danger and need to get the fuck off your computer and dial 988 on your phone. It's 3 numbers. I guarantee you that your dad will be scared, but he will also very relieved that you're safe and getting the best help you can get. You need to break through all the confusion and fog and put those 3 numbers in your phone and hit it. Otherwise things are going to get much worse, and you'll be going to the ER in an ambulance.
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>>3931611You're right. But the deadly withdrawals are usually within the first two weeks. I don't think I'm in psychosis because I am able to behave normally especially if I have to force myself
>>3931615Alright so I'm 21 years old. 6'4 at 200 pounds. I took 1mg for a month in May (I felt amazing and was social and acting like a normal non autistic human being) I cold turkeyed for a month then decided to tapper down the next month. It's been 5.5 weeks since my last dose. I was in British Columbia flying and driving and was capable of functioning despite my extremely high anxiety. My brain is constantly in threat detection mode, I'm terrified of socializing because I either think someone is making fun of me (which feels deadly to me) or someone is about to kill me. I'm terrified of humiliation. I have become insanely lazy and have extreme intrusive thoughts. I think of every single tiny detail. I got a panic attack today because I was using the tv remote and I was thinking I might get electrocuted and how will I explain this to 911 and then I started to see my father getting scared and l became all panicky even if on the outside I look 100% normal. My back and my legs are hurting me a lot. I am unable to hold a conversation, people think I'm extremely rude because of the way I speak which makes me want to cry. For some reason I sleep 7 hours even if I have a nightmare every day then I wake up FULL OF ADRENALINE and then I become so depressed to the point where I start to cry because I feel like my family is about to die. I get emotional thinking of my family. 2 weeks ago I saw someone getting arrested and I froze in fear.
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>>3931635What do you believe in truly?
Life is the hardest test, welcome to your toughest one yet.
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Get off the drugs or anxiety pills they are sold to you by jews
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>>3931637i have told him about magnesium and breathing exercises, he is prone to panic attacks atm
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>>3931630I really appreciate the concern, it makes me feel so much better. But I promise you I'm in no physical danger. Especially not at 5.5 weeks. What do you specifically think is happening to me? I have 1 week of work left and I'll get a huge bonus then I'll be unemployed for a few months until I recover and relax at home. Hopefully I'll slowly start to gain my confidence and my brain chemistry will start to readjust
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>>3931635>But the deadly withdrawals are usually within the first two weeks."Usually" means nothing when you're a unique person with your own unique biology. You are obviously fucked up and I recognize the symptoms, like shaking, which are advanced and extremely dangerous. Getting attacked by demons is even worse, meaning you're past advanced into flat out toxicity and neurological death happening in your brain.
>I don't think I'm in psychosisNobody in psychosis thinks they're in psychosis. Nobody. This is the first nerve demons shut down when they possess you.
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>>3931641Being in psychosis is not the evil, decisions you make are.
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>>3931636I used to be the biggest narcissist in high school and in elementary school. My personality at home and at school was completely different. Thankfully my parents never found out how I used to behave, I realized how cringe I was and started to read the Bible and start praying which helped me a lot. I started behaving properly, no swearing, no bad driving, no gossiping, no social media and it made me feel much better but I live with goyim NPCs, my dad is an atheist who used to lose his temper a lot on me when I was very young so I've been completely traumatized and I am terrified of him (road rage, raging for stupidities) even if he is super chill nowadays. This is why I am terrified to have social interaction around him or with him. I've worked really hard and to this day I don't have much friends, I don't have much money and I feel like there's no economic future or anything. When I was on the drug, I was no longer insecure, I felt love and I gave love to everyone, I was socializing and acting like a normal human being, I was 10x smarter because I was focused and didn't think of what ifs 24/7
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>>3931641I'm not shaking, I INTERNALLY shake when I pick up a moderately heavy object. And this feeling has been subsiding.
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>>3931639I would agree with you if you weren't fucked up and shaking in pain. That's not "I feel bad", that's "I'm dying" territory. The neurotransmitter pumps in your brain work in cycles and you're experiencing an insane overload of GABA that could have built up over the last few weeks. 988 isn't a goon squad that throws you in a padded cell, they'll talk you through your symptoms and tell you that you need serious medical help just like I am.
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>>3931645Even though I read the bible, I ended up being too judgmental, my punishment is being judged harshly, so now I must endure, and willingly do, so that I should suffer now, and not later.
>>3931646I was so weak I couldn't pick up a rock, and I didn't do drugs or alcohol, just didn't elope.
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>>3931648I'm not shaking in pain. My legs and back are incredibly stiff and are in pain. I only internally shake (meaning no one can really see it) when I'm in front of people and or I'm carrying something moderately heavy. I just picked up a 45 pound dumbbell and extended my arm and I am capable of holding it without shakes, it takes a lot of brain power but I can do it
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>>3931649But all the sins I did was when I was a teenagers and a kid
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>>3931637I am completely off them
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>>3931657Do you know what torment is? You must record every sensation in a notebook…
>>3931658All sins come from the heart and one should reflect, and seek higher. Improvement is the path.
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>>3931657Yeah, I know. I've been through this exact shit several times. In one psychosis my arm was twitching like crazy and I thought that an anime slime had invaded my bicep so I started doing 40 lb arm curls to crush him. Your body's not at risk here, it's your brain which is going to get burned with increasingly infernal pain and confusion until you go completely insane if this does escalate. I'm not saying it absolutely will escalate, but I'm saying that if it does escalate you could potentially go insane or die. Is calling a number on your phone and spending a week reading books in bed worse than dying?
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>>3931665They like horror too, but they can only torment you to your level of maturity…
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>>3931667No one except one could resist it. I often slam against my door in the middle of the night as if someone invaded my house.
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>>3931665Yeah but I'm not thinking of of anime
Slime balls or anything outside of reality, my judgement and sense of reality is intact. I am totally aware I'm anxious and these are intrusive thoughts. I am extremely scared of humiliation, confrontation and death.
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>>3931675In the future, if you do right based on right beliefs, you will be tested according to higher right beliefs. They will try to make you crazy, but only if you're worthy. They are bound to torment and all of the desire the same, they are all the same.
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>>3931657>>3931661I want to point out that this absolutely demonic insane fucking nigger spamming your thread posts pictures of cartoon lions trying to mentally torture people and openly admits to talking to Lucifer in his head constantly. This is the type of creature the wavelength of your soul is attracting right now, both physically and in the dimension of consciousness. This is an actual gangstalker. Psychiatric nurses might not be able to openly talk about it because soyence, but they're completely aware of demonic possession and know how to deal with it. It's common for demonic forces to swarm people people that are suffering and collapsing. They infect you through your anxiety and paranoia, which sucks because just knowing about them makes you paranoid of them.
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>>3931678Your Sharingan is a straight pattern…
A very good one.