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>>3887291I distended myself from my friends I don't know why I used to have actual good times with them. Maybe it's time to reconnect. I hope it doesn't get weird because I haven't talked to them in a long time
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>>3887292Come on man this is the first time in a while I ve been serious your hurting me because this is my reality this is how I actually feel
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>>3887304If you ack (you) look like that bro
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>>3887171>It's a curse to live in this complicated and unfogivi world with a heart like mine.Sorry if it's bad for your mental healtherino for me to reply to this but I agree with most of what you have said. I really feel like I don't know anything, like I can't know anything, that I know nothing for certain, and it makes me very afraid. I wish I could just end my life after going out Robert Bowers style but I'm afraid I'll go to Hell, but then again, I know nothing about Hell. There's a million different interpretations of what Hell even is and what sends someone there. I hate that I had to be born human. I hate being a human because it feels like I'm condemned to this disgusting abominable middleground between God and animal, where I'm just barely conscious enough to conceptualize of abstractions, hypotheticals, the past, future, right and wrong, etc. but not and never knowledgeable enough to know anything about them for certain like God is. If I was born as some spear chucking hunter gatherer 8000 years ago I likely wouldn't have to care about any of this and I would probably not have to fear my death and eternal torment so much.
<Feeling stupid, afraid, bored and ashamed are the main things I experience on a day to day basis. I just try and not to take note of my emotions beyond the physical sensations they produce lest I end up making things far worse by allowing them to fester and grow.
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>>3887298You should. A lot of my friendships disappeared because of my inaction or worse betrayal. But having at least one honest friend means a lot.
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>>3887307If I ever wanted to take my life I am going to jump off a building. If I am going out I am going to do it my way
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>>3887311Heh, at least we had the same mindset. But don't do it.
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>>3887311The rope and tranx shirt would appear while you're falling doe
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You're a legend man, from my heart.
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>>3887309This. But in my version I am afraid of endless nothingness. I won't feel it but evertimen I think about it my chest explode. I d like to think there is a heaven were all people who did good end up in it but I don't know endless nothingness seems like what's going to happen to me and I am scared
>>3887313I fear death so maybe I shouldn't bring it closer
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>>3887323I never feared death, I feared the sadness of my parents. I know my dad would follow.
<But what you said about friends is good. They keep you grounded, talk to them no matter how awkward you may think it may turn out.
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>>3887320Thank you man I haven't ever had a guy who truly appreciate my existence.. it feels like I finally have a purpous and people who actually care about mr
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>>3887335It's gonna be good man.
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>>3887333I should at least when I die I would hope somebody would be there for me in my grave I just don't want to die alone that's all
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>>3887337Everyday I am never in a good mood I walk for hours to keep my mind of my bad thoughs but eventually my legs tire and these thoughts hunt me
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>>3887341There's still beauty here. As long as the Sun rises and falls. We all see it, no matter where.
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It'a stupid but that red kept me here.
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>>3887347Jesus, I'm sorry man. Are you in a rut in life? Have things become monotonous?>>3887335
I care for what it's worth.
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>>3887354Yeah maybe going to bed will wear this off
>>3887358This is my second lowest point my Lowest point I almost successfully take my own life but I was saved by my family they still don't care about my mental health though
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>>3887371Thank you no one ever said that to me not even my family… I wonder sometimes if they actually love me or not I am always ignored as the middle child no one pays attention to me I am nobodies favourite I am like a ghost in the family I just wish they start to relieze that I am a human too
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>>3887381You know, I've seen a guy talk the same way. I barely knew him, but he resonated with me in the same way as you. We all struggle, life is like ying and yang. There are shit days and good days. Even years of pain, but after all that you'll see the light.
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I know I've had it, I couldn't stop crying knowing it was finally over. A decade of depression and feeling like you're useless. Feeling alone, like nobody understands you. There's this light of happiness.
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>>3887396>>3887402Yeah I am not in a good state of mind to make decisions right maybe I should just go to bed anything is an improvement from now on
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>>3887122 (OP)i feel like this then i remember that A im white B im american and C im not so endured to a dogma that i cant indulge in ideas that i dont agree with
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>>3887411I genuinely never knew someone as close to me like you, even as pathetic it may sound.
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>>3887414if you think about it life is actually really fucking easy geg
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>>3887406>>3887412I am happy for you man both of you deserve to be happy
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>>3887418TBH no one deserves to be happy but thanks man
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>>3887414It's fine everyone has a breaking point don't fight it
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>>3887421I'm genuinely gonna go to church tomorrow and light a candle for you.
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>>3887426Thanks man maybe god will guide me and my life easier even if I disbelief
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>>3887421sometimes ive thought about killing myself and i was very close to doing it but i remember that A i havent seen all i can B people in this world would like me dead so i want to spite them and C people who survive suicide attempts are the ones who regret it the most
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>>3887428I haven't been to church in months…
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>>3887430Yeah I have the same thoughs they are the ones keeping me standing I guess
>>3887432You should being closer to a higher more knowledge more loving pure entity feels great or so I heard
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>>3887439I know, my mom prays everyday.
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>>3887236What state?
What is happening with you?
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>>3887439you can always take in more punishment. you can take as much as you can and it only ends when your dead. being in depression or anguish doesnt destroy your world so why not say fuck that and just live? live and conquer good sir. dont give up
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>>3887444Well good for her she found her perpous I should try to find mine too
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>>3887450Yeah, I'm here for you. You should rest. We can talk tomorrow. I'll be here through the night too.
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>>3887447I ll try to push forward even when I am tired and I can't anymore thank you
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>>3887455Alright good night (hopefully)
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>>3887461Goodnight friend.
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Always talk, no matter how scared you feel.
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>>3887457thats all we can do man. thats all anyone has ever done. we try and thats the best we can do. but i will say that engaging in said activity or thing is the one thing you should do. being a third party viewer isnt a good thing