/pol/ - International /Pol/itics & /Bant/er

Hey polcux, this story is going to be pretty off beat for the shardee, but I don't know where else to post this since I don't really have any socials, kind of tweaking out over this but writing it down is making me ease up. It's like 2:26 AM and I'd really like to go to bed but this is nagging at me and I need input.
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For some context, I am not very mentally stable. Never had any like full blown psychotic episode, but I've struggled to make friends most of my life and I have somewhat frequent depressive episodes. Doing some self diagnosis stuff, I think I have some sort of schizo spectrum disorder. (I know my Dad is pretty mentally ill, might come from him) Take what I write with that in mind.
Starts about a month ago. For the past months before that, my life has been in a slump, I work, I go home, I use my phone, I go to sleep, repeat repeat repeat. I moved out of my parents house (nusoi can afford to live by themselves oh no no), so I live by myself, save for my dog . I stopped really socializing with anyone outside of going to church on Sundays, and even then I don't talk to them very often. Not to mention I live out in nowhere (see second picture) it starts getting boring being the only person under 35 in a 5 mile radius.
About a month ago, I started to get a little antsy around sundown because I noticed I couldn't hear the bugs outside when I was inside, but when I stepped out I could hear them clearly. Retarded I know but it really put into perspective how quiet my house is and it made me nervous. My dog also started to stare toward the back door around this time too so I went on a mental head trip about ghosts and it freaked me the fuck out bad enough I stopped using my backdoor and started to walk around the house like an autist. My yard isn't even that close to a tree line so it's not like I live in a cabin in the woods and have some reason to be scared.
So like a week or two passes of me being paranoid for no reason and then last week when I was half asleep I heard my dog get up and walk around, go back to bed, wake back up like an hour later at 5 AM and go to work. When I get back home, my dog is waiting for me as usual but she's not as enthusiastic as she is usually. This is while I'm in full sperg mode about the back door mind you so I'm getting thrown off by this still. My dog is an Australian Shepard, looks like 3rd pic but without the brown spots, and has blue eyes like that. Dogs eyes are fucking wrong like already she had some person looking eyes but now it's like slightly smaller pupils like it's still the dog eyes but something about them just is different like they look the same but I can just tell they're not the same. Sometimes when I look in the mirror, I freak out in the same way thinking that my facial features look like someone else, so I have done this type of shit before. Thinking I'm just going retard mode I ignore it and just try to unwind from work. Rest of the week so far has been fine and the dog looks like she's fine now but for whatever reason she seems to be somehow closer to me now and looks concerned about something which isn't how she usually acts. Saw her earlier standing on her back legs trying to open a closet and I'm going full fucking tard mode thinking my dog is a skin walker or some shit. Like she DOES NOT DO THIS the dog DOES NOT stand up like this I'm freaking the fuck out and it's not helping she's just kind of looking at me from the couch now like she can fucking read this idk just like do I need to take a breathing exercise or start eating fish or something o algo why am I freaking the fuck out over the dog