>>3462069 (OP)i found her insta, to then finding a picture of her this made me sort of weird, she is truly perfect i could say HTB, then i realized that this could be only a fucking disvantage since yk she is more beautiful than me, this i think was the first time that i wanted consciously a woman to be maximum being at my chart level of looks.
i started making scenarios, in which we are happy togheter under a forest tree while she in sitting against me, fresh summer air and cool tree breeze, the smell of wood and of fresh mud, she is playing with a flower in her hands, i'm truly relaxed and chill, we keep looking at each others while smiling we keep cuddling, avoiding any sexual touch, i can feel the energy from her heart and she can feel mine.
^ this was my scenario that i used these last days to calm downn and relax, while listening to DI6-Runes And Men Lisieux.You might be thinking "she isn't a special foidlet my brother in cuck since she doesn't reply to your message", well no:
1- She has about 2K Followers since
she posts randomposting content that includes ER and other bunch of Chronically online shit that we consume and love.
2- this draws attention of other cucks similar to me but most of them are just newgens Fakecels or chuds that discovered this whole shit just a month ago probably, and they might be messaging her too, so this means that she sees me like those niggers that need to be raped mentally.
—i realized another stupid idea that made me feel shit, i don't look good or have any other special thing that could differentiate me from the other niggers.
-i'm not tall
-i'm not muscular, i'm your typical ectomorph dude
-i don't have good hair (i tried to fix it but 0 results, and also i'm fucking balding due to all the stress i received)
-i don't have any talent or passion since society pushed me in to believing i'm a fucking circus cuck till i became truly one
-i don't know how to stay normal and behave "non-chalant" or that bs in public without looking like a creep or insecure
-i can't control me emotionally when someones argues with me and that almost makes me cry even if i'm totally in the right
-REALIZED THAT I'M A FUCKING DUDE FROM MIGRANT DESCENT WHO IS CHRONICALLY ONLINE, JUST TO FEEL DIFFERENT FROM HIS RETARDED COUNTRY PEOPLE, AND AT FIRST SIGHT I LOOK LIKE ONE OF THEM EVEN THO I HATE THEIR FUCKING BEHAVIOUR BUT THIS WOULD ONLY MAKE ME LOOK LIKE A DICKSUCKER CUCK ABOMINATION SINCE I CANNOT CRITICIZE THEM NOR COMMENT POSITIVELY ON THE NATION WERE I LIVE.
I came to a worse conclusion, 99% of women here are all normie 2iq uncoscious beings with barely any real free will, and that there are almost or none girls like her.
Realize that even if i succeed in my summer ascension and i will date a MTB normie who she will never understand this chronically online stuff that i like, so again the girl that i saw is one of 1 gazillion, the only chudette were i live.
I'm dying alone my niggers this shit too good to be true.