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You will never be in a real relationship with Soychang because Soychang is not even real. There is no hidden future waiting for you, no chance encounter, no moment where fantasy suddenly becomes reality. You attached yourself to a character, a concept, an illusion, and somehow convinced yourself it meant something deeper than it actually did.

Every emotion you poured into it was one-sided from the very beginning, because there was never a real person there to return it. You built conversations, scenarios, and entire emotional connections in your own head, then acted as though they carried the weight of a genuine relationship. They don't. At the end of the day, you are emotionally investing yourself into something fictional and expecting reality to reward you for it.

The people around you can see how absurd it looks. While everyone else is building actual experiences, meeting actual people, and living in the real world, you're stuck obsessing over a fantasy that cannot love you back because it literally does not exist. No amount of attachment, loyalty, or obsession will ever change that basic fact.

You keep trying to blur the line between imagination and reality because reality is disappointing to you. It's easier to cling to an idealized fiction than to deal with the unpredictability of real relationships and real human beings. Soychang can never reject you personally, never argue with you, never stop being "perfect," because Soychang only exists in the form you created in your own mind.

But deep down you already know this attachment leads nowhere. There is no ending to it, no payoff, no future where the fantasy becomes tangible. Just endless repetition: revisiting the same thoughts, the same feelings, the same imaginary connection over and over while real life keeps moving without you.

Eventually you'll realize you weren't chasing love at all. You were chasing escape, escape from loneliness, disappointment, and the uncertainty of reality. And the more time you spend trapped in that illusion, the harder it becomes to reconnect with actual life, actual people, and relationships that genuinely exist outside your imagination.