this shit eats away at my brain, every waking moment, i would sacrifice so much to go back to this time, with my current intellect, stopping myself from ever doing this. i was such a retard at teh time but i need to get it off my chest.
I sexually harassed a girl on teh bus.
It was a few years back, i had been watching those redpill videos where ur just told to cold approach as many women as possible, i wanted to try it so bad, but im a naturally nervous person. Anyways, i was on teh bus, and there was this really cute, semi-chubby alt girl sat opposite me. Looking back at it, we probably had nothing in common besides autism. But she was still gorgeous to me anyways.
My first mistake was getting out of my seat to sit next to her. She was probably uncomfortable but i didnt think of it that way at teh time. I sat there for a solid minute, before i just said "sup" to her, she was looking forward but she said sup back. i then complimented her hair and outfit, she definitely knew what i was up to, she was still looking forward but she just said "thanks". I already felt like this was a win, and at this point, i started getting really hard. My first mistake was putting my hand down my pants to tuck my penis into my waistband, she 100% saw that, and even if she didnt, she probably noticed my bulge anyways.
This is teh part where it gets really bad: I put a hand into my pocket, grabbed my cock through it and started jerking off, i tried to be stealthy but it was way too obvious. I started looking at her , she immediately got up and straight up just shouted "Help" in this semi-shouting voice, my other mistake was not getting off teh bus immediately and running away. Pretty much everyone was looking at this point, but i followed her, stood nearher and told her shes beautiful, and if i could have any social media of hers. She sidestepped away from me and shouted help again, by this point i stopped and started panicking, i still had my hand in my pocket throughout teh entire thing, and it was obvious i was trying to subtly jerk off. there were multiple guys bigger than me and one of them just said out "what are u doing". couldnt even speak, just started pressing teh stop button, i saw ppl getting out of their seats moving towards me and my heart was in my effing stomach, i started shouting but i could barely speak i was so petrified, ppl were out of their seats and looking at me, we were like a whole 40 seconds away from teh next sto
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