â„–15921342[Quote]
Feeling extremely miserable, ambitionless, and fatalistic, like god wasted his time giving me free will just so I could be innately subhuman and worthless through factors beyond my control. Waking up from sleep has a temporary repression effect but it doesn't last, my brain grows just to accommodate for more overthinking if I try to distract myself or go outside, and I feel repulsed by the mere thought of therapy. Most or all of my friends see me as inferior, disposable, and/or have someone better for no reason in my control. Additionally, I'm force-reminded daily of shit I want to forget about, and even when I try to use the "best course of action now is ___" mentality it gets me nowhere because there isn't anything important in my control and I would know because I've tried. I waste my time coping through media, food, wife fantasies that I've convinced myself are real via odd logic utilizing religious beliefs, and other hedonistic enjoyments because everything else just leaves more room for it to get worse. I was going to get a bass in a month but now I got a thumb movement restriction and there's no guarantee of healing. I just wish god would take away my life or free will at this point, or at least give me delusional disorder paired with relevant hallucinations so I can have the best fantasy experience (main thing keeping me going so far). I know I shouldn't say this on the bald man with glasses website but everywhere else is even worse and you guys might maybe break seriousness. Feel free to soyquote this it might be funny.
â„–15921362[Quote]
>Feeling extremely miserable, ambitionless, and fatalistic, like god wasted his time giving me free will just so I could be innately subhuman and worthless through factors beyond my control. Waking up from sleep has a temporary repression effect but it doesn't last, my brain grows just to accommodate for more overthinking if I try to distract myself or go outside, and I feel repulsed by the mere thought of therapy. Most or all of my friends see me as inferior, disposable, and/or have someone better for no reason in my control. Additionally, I'm force-reminded daily of shit I want to forget about, and even when I try to use the "best course of action now is ___" mentality it gets me nowhere because there isn't anything important in my control and I would know because I've tried. I waste my time coping through media, food, wife fantasies that I've convinced myself are real via odd logic utilizing religious beliefs, and other hedonistic enjoyments because everything else just leaves more room for it to get worse. I was going to get a bass in a month but now I got a thumb movement restriction and there's no guarantee of healing. I just wish god would take away my life or free will at this point, or at least give me delusional disorder paired with relevant hallucinations so I can have the best fantasy experience (main thing keeping me going so far). I know I shouldn't say this on the bald man with glasses website but everywhere else is even worse and you guys might maybe break seriousness. Feel free to soyquote this it might be funny.
â„–15921378[Quote]
>Feeling extremely miserable, ambitionless, and fatalistic, like god wasted his time giving me free will just so I could be innately subhuman and worthless through factors beyond my control. Waking up from sleep has a temporary repression effect but it doesn't last, my brain grows just to accommodate for more overthinking if I try to distract myself or go outside, and I feel repulsed by the mere thought of therapy. Most or all of my friends see me as inferior, disposable, and/or have someone better for no reason in my control. Additionally, I'm force-reminded daily of shit I want to forget about, and even when I try to use the "best course of action now is ___" mentality it gets me nowhere because there isn't anything important in my control and I would know because I've tried. I waste my time coping through media, food, wife fantasies that I've convinced myself are real via odd logic utilizing religious beliefs, and other hedonistic enjoyments because everything else just leaves more room for it to get worse. I was going to get a bass in a month but now I got a thumb movement restriction and there's no guarantee of healing. I just wish god would take away my life or free will at this point, or at least give me delusional disorder paired with relevant hallucinations so I can have the best fantasy experience (main thing keeping me going so far). I know I shouldn't say this on the bald man with glasses website but everywhere else is even worse and you guys might maybe break seriousness. Feel free to soyquote this it might be funny.
â„–15921419[Quote]
words words words award
â„–15921435[Quote]
>>15921342 (OP)thank god im at least not trooning out
â„–15921467[Quote]
>>15921342 (OP)you sound eerily similar to me except for the thumb restriction part
â„–15921469[Quote]
>>15921435>implying there's something wrong with being transyea… please kindly get the fuck out of the sharty
â„–15921476[Quote]
>>15921469this destroyed my seriousness thanks man
â„–15921496[Quote]
>>15921467start the bass, and if you ever trip, make sure to protect your hands and arms before anything else (even your head)
â„–15921505[Quote]
>>15921342 (OP)/r9k/ is down the hall and to the left my nigga
â„–15921507[Quote]
i want you to know i'm a real woman and i care and love you
â„–15921521[Quote]
Im the same but i have no friends and that best course of action applies to me and i have important stuff to do but im too mentally weak to do them
â„–15921546[Quote]
>>15921342 (OP)I'd be so much better it'd effectively be heaven if i at least had books or a working printer but i live in the middle of nowhere
â„–15921568[Quote]
have you tried therapeutically raping niggers
â„–15921602[Quote]
>>15921496i mean particularly the wish that God would just take your life and the constant feeling of being subhuman and ambitionless, just wallowing in your own misery because there feels like no reason to do anything. even doe im relatively young, it feels as if every ship has sailed for me. i have real life "friends" like you do too, but none of them actually care about me, im just a +1 for them, completely disposable. shortly after i gave up trying to actively participate in activities with them last year, i stopped hearing from them gradually for a short while and then entirely. they all have a groupchat without me, they know it, i know it, but they also know i have a growing contempt for them and mostly just about tolerate them because we're in constant close proximity to one another.
< i also relate to the bit about the fantasy wife thing, although i was holding out on it for a later date. i have it all planned out but im not going to actualise it just yet, and i can't go into the details. as for the religious convictions, i feel very special when i receive signs from the future, signs telling me what to do, informing me of things coming to pass. whenever my life doesn't feel drab and mundane, it feels like a dream, because i see things happening that are completely different to how most other people describe their lives. i see sets of correct predictions and proven omens falling into place that i have involuntarily received and i can't help but feel special, but most other times when i am alone i just feel like a subhuman animal. leaking about your emotions on the bald man with glasses website is aryan as fuck btw and i look like this and say this
â„–15921608[Quote]
>>15921602>I AM TRANScongratulations xister
â„–15921670[Quote]
First of all are you american
â„–15921676[Quote]
>>159215688. You WILL NOT make credible threats or promote real-world violence or terrorism.
â„–15921679[Quote]
Have you asked God why he put you on this earth?
â„–15921708[Quote]
>>15921679to pray (im a drop in the ocean when it comes to that)
and to identify and meet my own demands (ambitionlessness means this is nothing and if anything else was the objective purpose of life aside from the first then humans would go extinct way sooner)
â„–15921724[Quote]
>>15921676um sweaty therapeutic nigger raping is an accepted part of academia, read a book
â„–15921740[Quote]
>no
That makes it a bit harder ,you should start with something at least.Which one of these sounds easier to you: quitting porn going to the gym regularly or finding new friends/reconnecting with the old.Start with one then after a few weeks start another.
â„–15921765[Quote]
>>15921740I lift and I dont goon, and I need to force isolation down my throat like a bad-tasting medicine syrup because deterioration and corruption is promised to happen with any future friendships I make
â„–15921845[Quote]
>I lift and I dont goon, and I need to force isolation down my throat like a bad-tasting medicine syrup because deterioration and corruption is promised to happen with any future friendships I make
Well then , if you live in a first world country try to scrape some money for an apprenticeship, I did plumbing and it forced some discipline on me ,also my mentor was a really good man,a good father figure I mean.I needed to force myself to interact with the world and that did the job for me at least
â„–15921853[Quote]
>>15921845Third world country, namely jordan so this option doesn't exist
I'll just force myself to play bass with my thumb
â„–15921864[Quote]
>Feeling extremely miserable, ambitionless, and fatalistic
same
not much else to say
â„–15921870[Quote]
OP i really relate to you on the friend part. Most if not all irl friends i had in my life up to this point were nothing but strangers i talked to in school to pass the time. I have zero common interests with any of these people, except for like 2 that i barely even talk to anymore. The reason is because they are normies and i cant relate to them as much as i do with retards on here for example. I stopped trying to mske new friends a long ago. I instantly stop talking to any of my "friends" after i left highschool/university. The only real friends that know me in a personal level that i have common interests with are from the internet, so ive been extremely dependent on internet as a result of this. I could care less though. The only problem i have with myself is thar i am extremely unproductive and i hold grudges extremely easily where i replay shittg arguments i used to have on the internet in my head for months and genuinely feeling down whenever i remembered it. If my day is goung unproductive and very empty (as always) my brain finds the biggest inconvenience ive been through and fixates on it for weeks to fill out the place where normal bigger in real life inconveniences go if that makes sense.
â„–15921933[Quote]
>Third world country
Off ,any job then.I know this is not what you want to hear but you need to force yourself,I would encorage you to pursue bass but for me art was a dead end for motivation i tried writing and gave up 50 pages in.From what I read just now Jordan has an ass job market so I fell like I am westsplaing to you right now ,sorry for that
â„–15921963[Quote]
>>15921933effort is worthless in this niggerhell shithole, everyone's either a blue collar bum with an IQ below 90 working same hours and rates as the jannies OR working mainly outside the country and keeping their wife and kids here for "muh heritage" (would be fair if this country wasnt so fucking useless)
case in point: my options are self employ, GTFO, or get 'aped for free
â„–15922029[Quote]
>>15921708I'm struggling to understand the second half but for the first God (Omnipotent and All powerful eternal being) put you on this earth and he certainly has time for you and if you want know what he has to say he'll tell you
â„–15922053[Quote]
Join a very chuddy islamic organization I guess that is the only advantage I see in your position.
â„–15922082[Quote]
>>15922053ISIS would behead me after seeing me speak english as a first language
â„–15922111[Quote]
>english as a first language
Nigga is arabic not your first language?
â„–15922212[Quote]
>>15922178*unzips pants revealing large cock*
how much arabic do you even speak
â„–15922228[Quote]
>>15922212I know enough informal arabic to live here but I mainly have difficulties such as short vocab and slow reading
â„–15922237[Quote]
>nope
Find a creative pursuit I guess,be the Jordancel this world needs.Maybe with the internet you can share it with the world,it would be nice to try.
â„–15922243[Quote]
>>15922228*Starts pleasuring himself in front of you*
Any plans to leave that shithole and finally take the jump to the land of the free, home of the brave
â„–15922259[Quote]
>>15922243yes actually, soon im flying the FUCK out and living the rest of my days as a celibate reclusive game dev who made something that isn't troonslop or triple-A cashgrab coal
â„–15922262[Quote]
>>15922259*Creams himself all over your face*
That's good news buddy, I hope nothing but the best lies in your future
â„–15922269[Quote]
>>15922259oh also ive been playing a certain game (not naming it so soyteens dont 'ape me for playing troonslop) and its somehow distracted me so for the next few hours i get the repression effect